yesterday you won't

♥Wednesday, October 22, 2008.

as of this minute, what i want most isss,
my draven pretty woman shoes in a SIZE 7!
damn, thinking about it makes me depressed.
stupidstupidstupid! why did i buy a 6.5.
it was way too small.
but nowww, it's out of stock):
PLEASE. ok, i have decided
what i want most for christmas,
or any present,
are those shoes!
HELLO, YES. IF YOU'RE WONDERING WHAT TO BUY:D
you know you wanna buy me something!
heh.
so i really really want those shoes.
or even just managing to GET them for me,
or make them available,
would be the best gift ever.
i would pay you back.
and i would be FOREVER GRATEFUL.
ooooh, heroes finished downloading!
shall watch it after this.
so pleasepleaseplease, i beg of any of you
i beg of draven to make more of them pretty womans
in a SIZE 7
PLEASEEEEEE.
i think they've stopped making them.
damn that size 6.5!
ahh, i really can't get over this.
ok then.
today was quite a good day.
nothing much happened in school.
but after school,
i went to watsons to buy my dove deo.
yay, thanks to clare.
finally, someone who bought a nice smelling deo!
then i went to the library!
and managed to get two of my much sought after books
the other boleyn girl!
awesome.
thenn, i went to get myself some peanut butter waffles.
so yes, all that made me feel rather accomplished.
i went out to do so many things.
hahah.
ahh, i want my shoes)':
okayokay.
came home and was too lazy to get my tablet,
which was all the way upstairs.
to download heroes.
so yeah, just downloaded.
then decided to pon school tomorrow.
and convinced my mother to let me.
so i did kinda stretched the truth a little,
maybe we aren't actually cleaning for the wholee 2 hours.
so what. (i'm still a rockstar!)
but i am sorta developing a sore throat.
with coughs every, say 10 hours?
but it's not much of a shocker,
and not much of a lie.
since i always get sick,
once there's a holiday.
brilliant stuff.
and oh!
my brother drove me to school today.
cause my father's lazy and took leave.
i think.
but i was quite pissed off at first.
cause i washed up really slowly today.
didn't know he was gonna fetch me!
until i was leaving the house-.-
well, my brother's driving skills
aren't as good as my fathers.
actually, alot lousier.
with my fathers malaysian driving experience.
but i guess i really under estimated my brother!
i reached school early-on-time ish.
and when it's like a long road,
my brother actually drives faster than my father!
but if its like short ones with lotsa road humps,
he's excruciatingly slow.
i absolutely HATE it when people drive slow.
i hate anything slower than 100km/hour.
my father usually drives at 40km per friggin hour.
makes me feel like helping him floor the accelerator.
so i usually get to school early
thanks to his mad skillz.
which is eww, one thing i like about my father.
he's really good at driving.
but i HATE his road rage.
annoying.
i just hate road rage in general.
people like timTHAM.
get the hint?
yeahh, so saad!
i always thought he was really awesome.
he kinda sucks now.
and so, i just hate anything slow.
i hate walking slow.
i hate watching people who do things slow(xinyi!!@#$%)
oh so i think i know one reason why i hate old people.
cause they walk so friggin slow!
it's like move move MOVE for christ's sake.
at least don't block my way!!!
or i just hate people who walk slow in front of me
or block my way.
which was a sec one the bus today.
so i got a teensy bit angry,
and kinda pushed her away.
not my fault,
honestly, can you not see that you're blocking me.
i wish i had shoved her harder and made her fall.
oops.
do i need anger management help? nahh.
ooh, crazy long post again.
eh i know i wanted to write on something else.
just can't remember...
oh! yes, the science thing.
oh.my.god.
there's so much to do!
i think i might just die.
there's all that application shit.
it really feels like it's for those really smart people.
and i'm not.
so it kinda makes me feel shitty and sad):
and look at this.
Expected Commitment:
1. Weekly 3-hour attachment at institution laboratory (Jan 08 – May 09)
• 2 fixed afternoons to be set aside each week for SMP work
2. Full-day attachment at institution laboratory (First two weeks of June)
3. Write a 6 page scientific research paper for publication in the Youth Science Conference
Proceedings
4. Present research findings at the Youth Science Conference
oh man, next year is gonna be so busy!
firstly, school would ALREADY BE BUSY.
then, there's hockey,
which well sorta kinda good in this context, that i suck at.
cause i don't have b div training. :/
oh mannnnnn
TWO FIXED AFTERNOOOONS!?!
what the #$%@*$#$
that would be what?
my whole life goneeee.
ok well, kindaaa.
not used to being busy almost everyday.
good thing i don't have tuition.
i think i'd die!
not that good a time handler.
there's still school! ):
and school work
and no more awesomeching to copy from!!
fuck.
6 PAGE RESEARCH PAPER?!
wth is a research paper!
ok i know what it is.
but how am I, PHOEBE NG supposed to know how to do that!
see, how i said it made me feel shitty and stupid.
my ELDEST UNI BROTHERR was doing a research paper.
i can't do that.
not me.
ahhh, poor han ru and lavisha):
stuck with me in their group.
heh.
is this worth it?!
i'm doing this only cause it will look good on my application for vj.
again.
i really can't go in through my O levels.
my brother says i would need 7 points at the very most!
which is excuse me, CRAZY.
so yes, dsa.
damn it!
why must i suck at hockey.
ugh, so yeah, second brother said
that this would look really good in my applications for things.
ah, save meeeeee.
i hate how i fail at everything.
it's not that fun.
i think the saying
that failure is the stepping stone to success
is whole load of bull.
yes, because,
letss seee, HOW MANY FRIGGIN TIMES HAVE I FAILED?
where's my success?
i really don't see it.
ugh.
okay, heroes.

9:04 PM