yesterday you won't

♥Thursday, October 30, 2008.

i just have one little tip.
try not to eat too much yoghurt at once.
hmm, yeah.
it gets ugly and painful and disgusting.
but i love yoghurt):
so well, i've basically been watching one tree hill!
ALOT. oooh my chad michael murraaaay.
and his like signature laugh
which he ALWAYS does in the show,
is incredibly cute!
its kinda like 'ehhehheh'
like a sheepish-ish thing.
or maybe its just his incredibly
hotsexycute face that makes it cute.
ahhhhhh, so CUTEEEEEE
sophia bush is super pretty too!
and yess the storyline is good too.
poor nathan atm.
anddd brooke has to get with lucassss!!
dammit.
and ohohoh peyton and jake are good.
then lets see.
privileged!!
oh, i just love it cause of willllllllllll.
WILLWILLWILL!
he's so GOOD-LOOKING.
gorgeous faceeeeee.
i think he's my new favourite actorrrrr.
ahhh!
yeah, with the hotsexycute thinggg.
i think the best part about shows
is more of the sexy guys.
most of the shows that i watch
are mostly cause there are cute guys.
with only exceptions like FRIENDS.
OMG, WILL IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
damndamndamn, megan HAS to get with himm
not charlie!
charlie's lousier.
charlie's just average.
seeseesee, let us compare.
will is hotter than charlie
will is cuter than charlie
will is more good looking than charlie
will is RICHER than charlie. ALOT.
hmm, but will isn't much of a boyfriend type.
dammit!
please work out!
like jenny and nate.
so yeah, it could right.
jenny and nate seemed realllyyy unlikely.
but twists happen.
buttt privileged doesn't seem that twisty.
OH YEAH!
regarding the whole lipstick jungle thing
my added character.
i have no idea why i said ben!
i was thinking joe, really!
ben just somehow, came out?
weird.
ben and joe are kinda similar right.
both those 3 letter common names.
but COME ON!
RODRIGO!?
ok, lets just hope there really isn't any rodrigo
in lipstick jungle.
orr i would end up looking like an idiot.
which i am not!
soo yes, whut!
rodrigo doesn't really connect to anyone.
or sound vaguely like anyone in lipstick jungle.
so, yes!
pssht.
and oh yes.
chalet tomorroww.
damn, i hate packing.
and i have to wake up early tomorrowwww.
andandand,
PACKING SUCKS!
i want a personal assistant thing.
okay, i just wanna be RICH.
oh well.
need to bathe and pack soon.
i'm gonna miss my shows when i'm at the chalet):
oh, my lucas and will!
ohhhhhh, my stomach.

10:41 PM

♥Tuesday, October 28, 2008.

oooh! just finished watching gossip girl!
omg! i love this episode!
cause its a good episode for jenny!
and nate is hot.
oh and jenny's hair is nice!
i like it.
and i neeeed someone to come online
to talk about what happeneddd.
ahaha, oooh, there's xinyi!
okay, but she sucks.
why don't you like jenny!
oh man, i loved the last scene!
that was the best ever.
okay, sooo finally finished the first season
of one tree hill yesterday.
shall move on soon.
andd need to watched today's episode of heroes!
since xinyi reminded me. again.
i keep forgetting!
i shall go download it nowww.
whoo okay.
went to chinghan's house with xinyi yesterday!
and i'm like psychic or something.
we ordered pizza and it came right after i complained!
and my father called right after i complained too.
or maybe it's the power of whining!
we watched the whole season one of lipstick jungle.
since there were only 8 episodes.
KIRBY!!
isn't that like some pokemon character?
whatever it is, he's HOT.
and the thing with ben was sad.
then we painted nails.
hahaaha, the other part of my something fun.
and i was better than i thought!
well, after seeing how much lousier xinyi and chinghan are.
mine actually look nice!
phoebe is good.
we shall do this again sometime.
ooh, then i read more of the other boleyn girl.
and it's like never ending!
it's crazy.
i would have read ALOT.
then check my progress of how much of the book i've read.
and it'd be like very little
compared to how much was left!
quite demoralising.
and not to mention tiring.
there are so many shows to watch as well!
watching shows require so much less brain cells
than reading bookss.
oh well, i shall persist.

5:58 PM

♥Sunday, October 26, 2008.

well, there was training in the morningg.
saturday morning.
and i didn't really put in effort
in the game today.
alot lesser than usual actually,
cause there was reserve!
and you know, lousy goes to reserve.
its not that obvious actually.
but the reason is somewhere in there.
didn't do anything to make me feel accomplished today.
oh! i did watch a whole load of one tree hill though.
right from the start.
so china's not that bad for that
BUT!
omg, china sucks i tell you.
the first two cds of my private practice don't work
on the friggin dvd player!
but it's quite ok on my laptop i guess.
i got cheated!
oooh, one tree hill is awesome.
but it's not as fun
since i already watched some in between seasons
and know who was gonna get with who in the end-ish.
no more surprises!
damn.
wow, today really was a rather boring day to talk about.
but oooh! i really love one tree hill!
and chad michael murray and sophia bush!
they kinda are the reason i watched it in the first place.
pretty faces are always good in a show.
i do feel quite proud of myself
i'm actually using this holiday wisely.
planning it out a little.
all the previous ones were like spent staring at the computer
trying to think of something to do.
but ahh yes, i've gotten smarter nowww.
so many things to do!
so little time!
need to read the other boleyn girl!
and i'm planning on buying it to.
but it's hard to read when there's
so many other good things to doooooo.
damn, chinghans dvds came at the wrong time!
i have a list of to dos atm.
not in any particular order
cause i'm not sure which to do first and all.
i'll just see when it's time.
hahah!
k,
1) watch all of one tree hill.
2) watch all of private practice
3) watch all of friends
4) finish reading the other boleyn girl
5) watch priviledged
6) watch the upcoming episodes of hereos
7) watch the upcoming episodes of gossip girl
8) watch upcoming episodes of one tree hill!
(after watching the previous ones)
9)oh! watch the episode of greys with the private practice thingy.
it kinda has a connection. so i have to watch that before
properly watching private practice.

ah yes! i have such great plans.
there shall be more to do once i think of them.
oooh! i love deepavali.
breaaak.

12:03 AM

♥Friday, October 24, 2008.

gah, in a weird bad-ish mood right now.
cause theres EARLY training tomorroww.
i just really hate the ideaa of having to go for training.
but in the end, it's actually really quite good.
ahhh, i hate waking up early!
i already had to wake up early todayyy.
i need more sleep.
i feel like a baby. hah.
ahhh, and i hate how it takes up timeee
like i could be watching shows.
or SLEEEPINGG
but well yeah, i do love hockey.
soooo, thats why i didn't quit.
i'm pathetic
so well went to paveta's house today!
and i brought chingy along as a surprise!
for pamela and paveta.
hahah, i'm too cool.
sooo we went to buy fast food for lunch
and made our way to paveta's!
and bad news!
the creepy house wasn't renovated!!!
paveta lied to me!
so first, we tested out the cheena pirate dvds
yknw to see that they don't cheat us
as usual. heh.
and well the quality was alright i guess.
but still quite expensive actuallyyy.
oh well.
get to watch my shows!
then we got started on friends.
watched til like 5.40?
and paveta chased us out,
cause she had piano?
or something?
i have no idea.
ok, i'm kinda dramatising this.
then went back to vivo with pamela!
as spoilt chinghan waited for her father.
we went candy empire and then page one!
cause i wanted to get the other boleyn girl.
but they only had the movie tie in version.
oops.
i only wanted the original one.
i'm picky like that i guess.
oh and today was like really hot and humid?
cause i was sweating like a mad dog.
and it was hot.
yes.
had some good carbonara for dinner.
and then my training dreading started.
oh! just remembered another important reason.
I SUCK AT HOCKEY.
and i have horrible stamina.
so running is an issue.
it didn't use to be like this though.
yey.

10:15 PM

♥Thursday, October 23, 2008.

oh! i just remembered,
today was supposed to be the last day of school.
and whoa, my cable just went wonkers.
ahhaha! it's like black now!
it had weird noises.
PEARLYN! YOUR FATHER'S NOT DOING HIS JOB RIGHT!
okay, anyway.
yeah! last day of school.
and i didn't go.
oh well, no one went anyway.
HOLIDAYS HERE I COME!
although there still would be hockey making me wake up early):
but right, better than nothing.
i get to sleep in onn tuesdays, wednesdays and fridays!
yay.
ah dammit!
that's unfair.
its 4 early days and only 3 lates.
hmm okay,
i somehow can't bring myself to read the other boleyn girl
it's just so depressing!
it's like tugging at my heart.
which i do have!
and it is red!
not black.

11:10 PM

ahhh my whole day was all gone today.
i can't exactly say wasted,
but yes, gone.
so yeah skipped school today.
parents were surprisingly willing.
so i woke up at about 1+ cause i still had to go for hockey.
if not i guess i would have slept til 3 ):
so yeah, i just woke up to eat and managed to read a little.
then i had to leave the house already.
and training ended at around 6.30
but it was such a dark day!
the sun set really early.
anddd my father didn't go to work again! -.-
soo my brother ended up taking the car
to go to school.
which i s why my father couldn't drive me.
sooo my brother had to drive me home.
but he took so long to get to delta!
he said his school ended at 5.
i guess ntu is pretty far.
but it doesn't take that long.
i guess there was a traffic jam.
on the way back tooo.
and i think my brother and i kinda bonded.
in those looong moments of silence.
we did talk occasionally.
weird.
and ahh!!
oh man, the other boleyn girl really is an AMAZING book.
it's crazy good.
and i've only read like what, about 30 pages.
but i can already tell it's going to be so so sad.
such a depressing book!
it's like you really know mary boleyn's gonna be sad.
but i kinda stupidly flipped to the last few pages.
with the author's note.
and i saw something.
which kinda sorta but not really spoils it.
something to do with mary and (guy's name) stafford being happy.
but i do remember like 3 marys in the book so far.
oh god, mary's such a stupid name
to keep saying.
ah, so sad for mary):
anne seems quite horrid.
and it's like even when i read king henry being nice to mary,
it hurts!
cause she will end up hurt!
do you get it!
but such a good book!
and i'm going round in circles.
ohoh! wait, one more thing!
one more reason why i love this amazing book.
the fonts are friggin small!
it's like the size of paveta's nanny diaries.
it's just, PERFECT.

9:41 PM

♥Wednesday, October 22, 2008.

as of this minute, what i want most isss,
my draven pretty woman shoes in a SIZE 7!
damn, thinking about it makes me depressed.
stupidstupidstupid! why did i buy a 6.5.
it was way too small.
but nowww, it's out of stock):
PLEASE. ok, i have decided
what i want most for christmas,
or any present,
are those shoes!
HELLO, YES. IF YOU'RE WONDERING WHAT TO BUY:D
you know you wanna buy me something!
heh.
so i really really want those shoes.
or even just managing to GET them for me,
or make them available,
would be the best gift ever.
i would pay you back.
and i would be FOREVER GRATEFUL.
ooooh, heroes finished downloading!
shall watch it after this.
so pleasepleaseplease, i beg of any of you
i beg of draven to make more of them pretty womans
in a SIZE 7
PLEASEEEEEE.
i think they've stopped making them.
damn that size 6.5!
ahh, i really can't get over this.
ok then.
today was quite a good day.
nothing much happened in school.
but after school,
i went to watsons to buy my dove deo.
yay, thanks to clare.
finally, someone who bought a nice smelling deo!
then i went to the library!
and managed to get two of my much sought after books
the other boleyn girl!
awesome.
thenn, i went to get myself some peanut butter waffles.
so yes, all that made me feel rather accomplished.
i went out to do so many things.
hahah.
ahh, i want my shoes)':
okayokay.
came home and was too lazy to get my tablet,
which was all the way upstairs.
to download heroes.
so yeah, just downloaded.
then decided to pon school tomorrow.
and convinced my mother to let me.
so i did kinda stretched the truth a little,
maybe we aren't actually cleaning for the wholee 2 hours.
so what. (i'm still a rockstar!)
but i am sorta developing a sore throat.
with coughs every, say 10 hours?
but it's not much of a shocker,
and not much of a lie.
since i always get sick,
once there's a holiday.
brilliant stuff.
and oh!
my brother drove me to school today.
cause my father's lazy and took leave.
i think.
but i was quite pissed off at first.
cause i washed up really slowly today.
didn't know he was gonna fetch me!
until i was leaving the house-.-
well, my brother's driving skills
aren't as good as my fathers.
actually, alot lousier.
with my fathers malaysian driving experience.
but i guess i really under estimated my brother!
i reached school early-on-time ish.
and when it's like a long road,
my brother actually drives faster than my father!
but if its like short ones with lotsa road humps,
he's excruciatingly slow.
i absolutely HATE it when people drive slow.
i hate anything slower than 100km/hour.
my father usually drives at 40km per friggin hour.
makes me feel like helping him floor the accelerator.
so i usually get to school early
thanks to his mad skillz.
which is eww, one thing i like about my father.
he's really good at driving.
but i HATE his road rage.
annoying.
i just hate road rage in general.
people like timTHAM.
get the hint?
yeahh, so saad!
i always thought he was really awesome.
he kinda sucks now.
and so, i just hate anything slow.
i hate walking slow.
i hate watching people who do things slow(xinyi!!@#$%)
oh so i think i know one reason why i hate old people.
cause they walk so friggin slow!
it's like move move MOVE for christ's sake.
at least don't block my way!!!
or i just hate people who walk slow in front of me
or block my way.
which was a sec one the bus today.
so i got a teensy bit angry,
and kinda pushed her away.
not my fault,
honestly, can you not see that you're blocking me.
i wish i had shoved her harder and made her fall.
oops.
do i need anger management help? nahh.
ooh, crazy long post again.
eh i know i wanted to write on something else.
just can't remember...
oh! yes, the science thing.
oh.my.god.
there's so much to do!
i think i might just die.
there's all that application shit.
it really feels like it's for those really smart people.
and i'm not.
so it kinda makes me feel shitty and sad):
and look at this.
Expected Commitment:
1. Weekly 3-hour attachment at institution laboratory (Jan 08 – May 09)
• 2 fixed afternoons to be set aside each week for SMP work
2. Full-day attachment at institution laboratory (First two weeks of June)
3. Write a 6 page scientific research paper for publication in the Youth Science Conference
Proceedings
4. Present research findings at the Youth Science Conference
oh man, next year is gonna be so busy!
firstly, school would ALREADY BE BUSY.
then, there's hockey,
which well sorta kinda good in this context, that i suck at.
cause i don't have b div training. :/
oh mannnnnn
TWO FIXED AFTERNOOOONS!?!
what the #$%@*$#$
that would be what?
my whole life goneeee.
ok well, kindaaa.
not used to being busy almost everyday.
good thing i don't have tuition.
i think i'd die!
not that good a time handler.
there's still school! ):
and school work
and no more awesomeching to copy from!!
fuck.
6 PAGE RESEARCH PAPER?!
wth is a research paper!
ok i know what it is.
but how am I, PHOEBE NG supposed to know how to do that!
see, how i said it made me feel shitty and stupid.
my ELDEST UNI BROTHERR was doing a research paper.
i can't do that.
not me.
ahhh, poor han ru and lavisha):
stuck with me in their group.
heh.
is this worth it?!
i'm doing this only cause it will look good on my application for vj.
again.
i really can't go in through my O levels.
my brother says i would need 7 points at the very most!
which is excuse me, CRAZY.
so yes, dsa.
damn it!
why must i suck at hockey.
ugh, so yeah, second brother said
that this would look really good in my applications for things.
ah, save meeeeee.
i hate how i fail at everything.
it's not that fun.
i think the saying
that failure is the stepping stone to success
is whole load of bull.
yes, because,
letss seee, HOW MANY FRIGGIN TIMES HAVE I FAILED?
where's my success?
i really don't see it.
ugh.
okay, heroes.

9:04 PM

♥Tuesday, October 21, 2008.

whoaa, just a short post
to express chinghan's awesomeness!
eee.
okay, so finee, china isn't thaat bad
since chinghan managed to buy all our dvds!
at such lowlowloww prices!
but i do still have to see the quality of them.
YES!
one tree hill!
gossip girl!
private practice!
friends!
i think that's all i asked for.
and aww, chinghan managed to get them all!
i forgot about desperate housewives though!
shoot!
omg, so damn happy!
ooh! chinghan got lipstick jungle for herself,
shall borrow ittt.
ahhh, HAPPY HAPPY DAYS.
go visit china again next year, chinghan!
ILY CHINGHAN BB!
see, not once in this post,
did i use a weird nick of yours. (:

9:40 PM

♥Monday, October 20, 2008.

today was quite weird.
actually, it was quite baddd.
there was math!
ms loo scolded us for ponning schooool.
trying to make us feel bad!
then there was some stupid quiz.
didn't know how to do most of it cause
she taught it all on friday.
and i was kinda dying, with my headache!
paveta was not a good choice to copy,
since she didn't know how to do it eitherrr.
and iva was on my other side.
so it was difficult.
then well, i gave up.
thank god i gave up and started making alot of noise!
and laughing.
cause that kinda triggered ms loo
to make me answer the first question.
to pay for my noisiness or something like that
and aha! that question was the easiest question ever!
it was quite stupid.
yeahh, i kicked ass.
slept through cs, hoping my headache would go away,
but to no avail!
when i woke up, it still hurt like a bitch.
and oh, we have some cs project thing.
which i don't think anyone would hand in!
quite useless, doesn't matter at all.
then well hockeyyy.
tessa and i were kinda dreading it together.
after running and basics,
my headache kinda spread.
it was just the right side of my head.
like from the very top, just all kept to the right side,
since last night.
but it spread to my whole friggin head!
it was like whooaa.
but the right side still hurt more.
and it still hurts now!!
ughhhh.
oh yeah, need to get my mother to write a letter for the two days.
hmm, surely there was something interesting todayyy.
okay, i've got nothing else postable.

10:29 PM

♥Saturday, October 18, 2008.

feeling pretty happy now!
i think it's thanks to my 2 days of skipping school!
ahhh, it feels great, and freeeee
didn't need to wake up early!
except for well today, for hockey.
but ahhh, a nice long break!
feels amazing.
happy days.
and hehe, didn't have to go through papers!
hmm actually, i wouldn't mind
i would be able to see what i did wrong.
oh dear, i'm so weird.
anyway!
today!
ahh, had to wake up early):
and i had to wake my brother up too,
to drive meeh.
usually he wakes up so easily.
oh well.
i kinda waved at him, above his closed eyes.
and he somehow saw!
creepy.
so thenn, he kinda drove the wrong way.
which was pretty expected.
good thing i had planned for that!
and left the house earlier):
yeah, and i was kinda sleeping with my eyes open,
so i didn't realise til a few minutes after.
oops.
but it wasn't that bad!
he knew how to u-turn right.
and from there,
my amazing sense of direction guided us to delta!
yay.
and oh!
surprisingly, he didn't get angry at me,
when he went the wrong way!
cool, usually, he would):
and it would be scary.
which is not good.
it makes me tense, and get the directions worse.
he remained calm!
with well just a tinge of acid in his voice.
good job brother!
you have to slowly overcome,
your anger issues!
step by step.
i'm so proud of you.
aww, i see my tickle me elmo!
hmm, so after hockey,
kinda celebrated joanne huang's birthday!
aha, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
though you'll never see this.
oh, i loved the 14 pink things,
or should i say thongs.
aha.
right, that's stupid.
sooo, after that, went to bishan library,
wanted to read p.s. i love you.
cause alot of people said it's really nice and sad,
but the movie ruined it.
and i didn't really like the movie.
does that make sense?
ah, i just wanted to read it.
and oh!
i wanted to read the other boleyn girl!
by philippa gregory.
but ugh!
ps love you were all on loan.
and i couldn't find any gregory books!
ugh, so i went with my usual.
ahah!
but ahhh, really wanna read some philippa gregory books.
i shall try again.
then, went to open the letter box!
and my amazon stuff has arrived!
many other letters that weren't mine too.
but!! the stupid postman or woman,
was so lazy or something!
usually, when the package is too big,
they would come up to your house and deliver personally.
and the books were too big!
but not when you open up the wholeee case of the letter boxes.
do you get me?
the thing is,
they are so dumb,
that i couldn't take it out.
it was seriously stuck,
so when my parents came home from malaysia,
they helped me cut the cardboard open,
and free my mcfly music books!
but here's the depressing part.
i've seriously pretty much forgotten
how to play the piano.
i suck!
ok, i can play, kinda.
but i've forgotten sooo many things!
all the annoying signs,
we learnt in theory.
its all gone.
damn, i actually feel quite sad.
a teensy bit regretful.
which is what my parents said i would feel.
to make me not stop!
acutally, not that much.
i HATED piano exams.
so it's quite worth it.
i hope aunty irene will take me backk.
and just teach me my nice mcfly pieces.
PLEASEE.
today, was the first time, in more than a year.
that i sat at the piano!
and played it.
it felt weird.
and i soon got sleepy.
which kinda reminded me why i didn't really like it.
so sleep inducing!
oh!
i can't wait for them to make a radio:ACTIVE one!
wheyyy.
oh and yet another reason why i'm happy.
oh god, this post is loong! ahaha.
good job if you're still reading my tiny words.
my father asked me about my results.
actually he kinda already roughly knew the whole idea.
i guess my mother told him,
then he complimented? me on my math and science,
i think.
first time though.
he usually focuses on the bad stuff.
like chinese.
and he asked me if the school gave me anything for my science-.-
so i said noo.
AND! GUESS WHAT!
he said he'll reward me!
ahahaha, FIRST TIME EVER BABY
i've gotten marks like this before,
and he never really bothered.
or i think i didn't tell him.
ah whatever, usually i have to demand for a reward!
whoooo!
this is good.
FINALLY!
free stuff!
nowww, what should i buyyyyyy.
i'm kinda thinking red blackberry curve or camera.
but the red curve is impossible.
SO ANNOYING!
can someone just bring it innnnn!!!
and well camera seems kinda out of the budget.
pooooof.
i shall think.

8:45 PM

♥Friday, October 17, 2008.

ahhh, i hate it when my grandmother gives me money!
i feel so baaddddd.
damn.
she gave me $30!
for lunch tomorrow.
i feel terrible, for being meannnnn.
shoooooooot.
agh,
anyway, done the annoying streaming thing.
combi B!
which apparently, as i've seen and heard,
alot of people are choosing?
eeeps.
wouldn't wanna take lit!
i wouldn't mind taking combined humans
but my brother says it isn't that good?
oh well, i guess i should listen to him
i don't really know anything.
and ahh, i really kinda want/need triple science
for my own reasonable reaons.
let's hope this all goes well then!
ahhh hockey tomorrow,
still scared.

11:29 PM

skipped school yesterday and today!
yay.
but aww, missed getting my results slip.
apparently, i need to put in more effort in chinese?
but hey! it's not my fault!
i wrote a friggin long and awesome essay!!
which they failed me for.
so, i've been having a movie marathon!
lets see, what did i watchh.
oooohh! watched the wedding date yesterday.
wait no, wednesday night.
well technically thursday morning.
ahh whatever!
ok, it was quite a weird show.
but interesting?
and it was british!
haha. accents.
thenn, because i said so!
ohhh, i loved that!
i tried to watch that a few months ago.
but got turned off by the mother,
and stopped after a few minutes.
but it's actually really nice!
the guy's quite cute.
and mandy moore's pretty awesome.
so after being mesmerized by mandy moore,
i decided to watch another mandy moore movie!
an older one.
how to deal!
but it kinda sucked.
it was so boring!
and nothing really connected.
there was like no reasons for the things that happened.
its like whut.
soo after watching about four fifths of it,
i gave uppp.
yeah, and mandy moore had pretty ugly short hair in it!
thenn 40 days and 40 nights.
eeeps.
but pretty funny.
at least it wasn't boring.
then jersey girl.
i thought i remembered paveta saying it was nice.
so yeah.
but actually quite boringgg.
and also cause i hated Liv Tyler
maya in the show.
the one who was in lord of the rings, arwen
poor aragonnn!
aragon is cute with the beard and all.
ok right, didn't like her character in jersey girl
she was weird.
and her voice was annoying.
ohh, but the start of jersey girl was so sad!
made me cry twice.
awww, ben affleck.
other than the sad parts,
the rest kinda sucked.
ohhh, the sweeney todd part was quite nice.
hmm, and oh!
finally watched heroes season 3!!
oh mannnnn,
why do so many bad things keep happening
in season 2 and 3
it's so sad!!
sureshh!!
andoo!!
ahhh.
crazy crazy.
and ooh! yay!
my brother is willing to drive me to hockey tomorrow!
YAY! thankssss.
ok, i hope he doesn't get lostttt):
that would suck.
ahh, driving tests and lessons
should really include directory lessons teaching them places and stuff.
awww, hockey's so earlyyy.
OHHHH!!!
ate mos burger today!
and eeeeewwww.
there was like a piece of plastic in my chilli dog.
oh god, gross.
i ate less than half of my hot dog):
then i spat everything out.
aww, sick.
it was a big piece!
then frozen strawberries.
mmhmm.
ahhh, parents coming back tomorrow:/

8:43 PM

♥Wednesday, October 15, 2008.

today, WHOA.
well, there was something
but let's just say it would be
really distasteful to blog about.
it was well...
ahhh, anway!
went to macs to meet pamela, rachel and chinghan
in the morning!!
i freaking woke up 2 minutes earlier.
ugh, i did like the sour orange juice though.
paveta and pearlyn came later,
after we finished our food.
then we had to leave early,
cause ching had her ahva duty,
which she actually didn't need to go for!
then we made a sleepy way to school.
well except for the like of paveta,
she was so awake!
i was sleepy and exhausted the whole day.
still am though, even after napping for 2 plus hours.
fell asleep with the tablet on my lap.
ah then the rest of school was spent
getting our marks back.
i am pretty satisfied with my marks.
it didn't kill my dreams of wanting to take triple science,
it's all thanks to God.
so yeah, quite good.
but ugh, i was really sleepy in school today.
hardly had enough energy.
came home with the intention
of watching heroes season 3,
which is all xinyi's fault!
ahhh, what did hiro do!
and i wonder what would make peter petrelli bad.
ugh BUT
none of them videos loaded!
it was all stuck at chapter 3!
so infuriating.
well , actually only the hd quality ones
were stuck.
but you don't expect me to watch some
lousy pixelated ones do you.
xinyi, HELP!
where did you watch yours.
or better yet, did you download it?
my brother wouldn't help me download.
stupid.
so while waiting for my heroes to load,
i fell asleep.
which was my 2 hour nap
with the tablet of my lap.
aha, that rhymes!
and the heroes has still yet to load!
it's exactly the same as before.
how annoying.
hmm then ooooh
my parents left for the coach to malaysia already!
but then again,
there would be my grandmother,
which would suck.
at least i get to be sick.
ahhh, if only the tickets weren't sold out!
damn.
ahh, cramps.
so wellllll, ah i'm still sleepy.
i wanna watch my heroes.
.
ohmygod.
you disgust every bone in my body.
do you actually know what you are saying?
hah.
good luck in life.
ahhhhh, why am i so sleepy!!
and my eyes keep twitching.
agh.

6:42 PM

♥Tuesday, October 14, 2008.

school was pretty horrible today!
but yes, still better than exams!
still.
ok but, MATH?!?!
our exams are overrrr, but there was still math.
how depressing.
and there's supposed to be lessons next week?
what!
ugh.
and there was wayang.
omg.
and deeparaya thing.
which was way too long.
actually, everything lasted too long!
at least i could go home today,
to rest.
oh yes, to watch gossip girl actually.
today's episode was so,
hmm, sweet?
yeah, i guess so.
then oh! had chilli for dinner.
it was really good!
but oh god, i'm so full now!
i should be hungry soon though.
oh, yesterday.
there was hockey.
that's all that was memorable.
and god, do i HATE the sec ones.
with a few exceptions of course.
the way they are,
just leaves me in such astonishment
like seriously, WHUT.
are those words seriously coming out of your mouth?
honestly, why are they still alive.
wouldn't there have already been
someone who wanted to kill them.
or do i have to do it.
ugh.
hmm alrightt.
OHHH
UGH.
MY MOTION IN THE OCEAN TOUR EDITION IS NO LONGER AVAILABLE.
THE LAST ONE WAS LOST IN SHIPPING!
OHMYGODD )':
WHYYYYYYYYYYYY
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY!
WHY DO THESE HORRIBLE THINGS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME!
UGHH.
ok, but there is some little hope left.
there's the amazon marketplace.
BUT they don't ship to asia.
only to like uk and america and others.
sooooo, well.
i coulddddd beg xinyi
to let me ship it to her aunts houseee.
hehhh.
HELLOOOOO.
PLEASEEEEEEEEEE.
ugh, my dear mcfly):
damn, i hate the root cause of this.
if you get meeee.
ahh, tomorrow.
there are like good things and bad things about it.
well, i'm not sure if it's good or bad
but, there's the stupid car free day.
get to go to school later.
but well, no cars. (in sight)
yeah, so just gonna get my father to drop me off
somewhere near school.
then well, i'll take a bus or walk.
and well, the worst of the day.
well, it would be the whole of the school day.
resultsss.
awww mannnnnnn.
oh please let my results be good!
well, i did put ALL of my papers in God's hands.
so it is all well taken care of.
whether i made mistakes or not,
He has made my marks amazinggg.
haaa, okay.
ahhhhh omg!
i really really really really really
REALLLYYYYY
want my red curve 8320 or 8330!
i'm really flexible.
PLEASEEEEEEEE.
hmm, ice cream.

8:15 PM

♥Sunday, October 12, 2008.

awww, i've just been watching videos of sophie!!
so cutee.
but oh god,
watching those where they are taking out blood!
omg, poor baby!
eeew, break the heeel.
oh god, i think i'm going to faint.
bloooood.
can't watch thissss.
not watching thisss.
even the sound makes me feel like fainting!
awwwww baby so cuteee!
she's really cute!
but i do have to say she has really ugly ears!
haha, ok only the ears!
so cute.
ohoh, and i watched win a date with tad hamilton
it was quite good.
ohhh! 1 month 3 days!
so cute!
her eyes are bigger!
eeee, so cuteeee.
all it needs are polka dotted pants.
hahaha.

10:56 PM

♥Saturday, October 11, 2008.

there was hockey today.
and i am exhausteddd
hockey always makes me tired for the whole day.
ooh training was sort of better than expected.
i could run!
as in like compared to me normally.
i ran 4 rounds!!!
you have no idea how big of an accomplishment that is.
oh god, yes i know
can you say PATHETIC.
but yeah!
heyy, i usually only run an even more pathetic 3 rounds.
and like this was the first training in about a month.
but i could run moreee!!
ahhh, but at this rate,
my stamina isn't really gonna be good enough.
i need AT LEAAAAST 5 rounds.
agh ok, so the 4 rounds seriously killed me.
and during basics i really couldn't breaaathe.
butbut, there was the well needed sprayers.
ohhh that was gooood.
well it was a mix.
somehow i was in a very horrible position.
where all the big splashes of water we end up on me.
like you know there would be water coming down
from when it sprays out.
but the water that i got,
was the end of it.
like the main thing.
do you get it?!
damn, i can't explain things.
its just that i got the most water ever,yes.
the water just made me feel better i guess.
colddd, ahhh.
but i was soaked through.
completely wet, everywhere.
i was dripping water!
but it felt good.
so well after training,
just went home and kinda slept.
uhm, without bathing.
HEHH, as always.
but i've showered already!
right before this.
usually i wait til around midnight.
hahaha.
i'm not disgusting!
hmmm and i'm wearing my retainers now.
so uncomfortable):
i hate them.
why is it taking so long for me to get used to them!
ugh.
and oh!
spent the whole of yesterday watching goong.
it was actually quite boring at first.
but i just needed to get myself into it.
yknw, then it started to get rather good.
hehehe, exciting part now!
dramadrama!
i only like the parts with alot of drama though.
like the parts where they fight.
otherwise, the normal parts are pretty boringg.
haaa, i feel good now.
must be the endorphins?
oh and i'm hungry!
i haven't eaten anything!
since uhm yesterday.
didn't get to eat breakfast,
cause i hate eating before trainings.
and i was not well taken care of by my family
when i came home!
how sad.
actually i feel a little too tired to be hungryyy.
aackk.
PAVEEETAAAA COLOURARAJOOO!
I WANNA WATCH FRIENDS!
you're supposed to invite.
quick, set a date!
i am ALWAYS free.
wow yeah.
it's quite a sad but good thing.
i never have anything on.
ever since i stopped piano.
hmm, cool.
ok, the only days are
ohh ooops, went to eat dinner!
california rolls without crabstick.
mmmhmm,
and frozen yoghurt! tangerineee.
ok right.
the only days that i'm not free aree
hockey days!
mondays, thursday and saturdays.
for now.
keep that in mind PARVETA!
hmm, yeah and i have no tuition or special classes.
sooo, nothing at all!
hmm, would start piano again
when i get my mcfly books though!
yay, can't wait.
i can finally play nice music!
happy days happy days

6:44 PM

♥Thursday, October 9, 2008.

i told myself that i would NOT be bored
after the exams are over.
sooo,
IAMNOTBOREDIAMNOTBORED
IAMNOTBOREDIAMNOTBORED
IAMNOTBOREDIAMNOTBORED
nonono!!!
NOOOOO)':
i can't be bored.
anyway, finally watched my season 2 of heroes!
all done!
ahhhh, it was so sad.
bad things kept happening.
like nothing was turning out right.
and you don't know who's telling the truth.
oh and i miss peter petrelli's old cute hair!
sylar sucksss.
hmm yeah.
why does everyone die?!
ahh i love peter petrelli.
hiro was cuter in season one.
and he was the cause of the trouble in season 2!
mostly.
hmm,
what shall i do nexttt.
ugh.
ahh, hockey's starting on saturday.
scary.
i'm hungry.
hunnhh.

6:20 PM

I HATE MY GRANDMOTHER.
IHATEHERIHATEHERIHATEHER.
GO BACK TO KL, BITCH.
and take your son with you.

12:13 PM

♥Wednesday, October 8, 2008.

WAHEYYYY! exams are over!
so well science wasn't that bad.
cause i had God's help throughout.
and He's going to make the marks amazing.
in fact He's going to give me good marks for everything!
awesome.
hmm, so went out with rachel, pearlyn and chinghan.
went vivo for white dog):
oh my moneyyy.
but it was pretty fun.
we walked around alot.
waiting for white dog to open!
then we decided to watch the house bunny!
oh my money.
but yeah, while waiting,
we walked around somemore.
window shopping!
went to the gap!
and the baby section!
guess what i saw?!?!
super awesome insanely cute polka dotted shorts!
but it really is nice!
i think i am gonna buy it for my cousin's babeh!
but like the smallest size wass 8-12 months?
or was it 6-8?
either way, too big!
she's like only 2 months old?
but i might buy it and wait!
keep it.
and enjoy staring at it lovingly.
and laughing at it like an idiot.
cause it might go out of stock!
and ugh the topshop in vivo
doesn't have the baby/kids section!
then just walked around alot more.
random places to kill time!
and hmm i think pearlyn has some picturesss.
we decided to get starbucks for he movie.
oh my money.
then ooh! the movie.
it was pretty good.
but anna faris looks reaally fake!
like her lips.
the show was funnyy!
funny bunny!
hmm, right.
but ahh! i hate gv!
don't wanna go gv again.
i HATE their seats.
makes my back and neck hurt.
ohman.
only cathay has good seats.
yeah, and cathay has like student tickets!
which is some pretty awesome stuff!
six dollars only!
hmmmmmmm, i shall try asking for my starworld back soon.
assholes.
i guess that's all.
HEROESSSSSSSS.

6:20 PM

♥Tuesday, October 7, 2008.

ahh, my grandmother is uh 'singing'
unhhhh. help.
okay anyway, geog's over!
and well, i really don't know what to say about the paper!
ahhh, but i do hate sim!
so well, ahh just have to hand it to God.
and He will give me amazing marks!
as he promised.
i claim it!
awesome!
sooo, one last paperrrrr!!!
science though.
a study paper.
and well as xinyi said,
already in the holiday mooood!
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
stop fucking 'singing'!!!
okok.
ahhh omg i really can't concentrate at all with all her noise!
i can't form the words i want to type out!
dear father almighty.
oh right yes.
before this.
like yesterday and before that.
i was reallllyy toooo exhausted to be happy.
usually by the last 2 papers.
i'd be screaming my head off and jumping
all around.
buttt this has taken way too long!
it's pretty unbearable.
but persist i will.
ugh.
okay, actually i'm not exactly excited yet.
hunh, still quite annoyed
and EXHAUSTED!
exams SUCK.
and ah! so many physics worksheets!
actually, ALL MY WORKSHEETS ON ELECTRICITY
including tests are gone.
cause they were in the bloody file!
which someone did something to!
where the hell is it!!!
i am annoyed.
oh well, my deardear chinghan
promised that she would come online to give me scans.
yes, and how disappointed would i be if she doesn't? ):
yeah. where are youu chinggay deary?
alright, i can live through this.
just study for one more day.
just one.
one more paper.
ONLYYY one.
i can live.
yeap.
/
ahhh, damnit.
i don't know why.
but i feel so stressed right now!
ugh, this sucks.
i reaaaallly hate education.
mark my words, once i'm queen...
ahh anywayyy,
i really can't take this
so i'm handing it all to God.
He'll take charge and give me peace
in return for my stress.
He'll just give, give and give.
and i'll just keep on taking.
because of God's grace and love for me,
i'll be able to do tomorrrow's science
paper with ease.
it will just be smooth riding throughout.
i claim that!
and He'll also give me amazing marks.
give me Your peace.
thank youu.

2:11 PM

♥Monday, October 6, 2008.

whaoooooo.
damn, i lost my file!
i think some idiot took it.
cause i just left it in school i think!
ugh.
my physics stuffffff!!
my physic worksheets and tests!
dammit!
gonna try to find it again tomorrow.
okay, so chinese sucked.
i was falling asleep during the exam
again.
so many passages to read!
and i didn't understand any really.
it was quite a disaster.
chinese exams with so many passages make me feel stupid
cause i read chinese reaaally slow.
reading chinese words is hard!
i really don't know why.
or how to explain it.
but it's like word by word,
and many a times i have to re read alot
cause i don't get it!
CHINESE SUCKS!
butttt omg, i really hope i pass!
just a stupid 50 is really good enough for me.
ah ok, i'm hungry!
mmmmm, cheeeese!
/edit
ahhhhh!! ithniehnetinebijja!
what's map readingggg!!
i've forgotten how to do it.
or what it even is!
stupid sim didn't even revise it with us!
how do you do the grid reference thing?!
omg, i hate geog!
ihategeog!!!
i'm starting to think that maybe
i should have just listened in her lessons
like once or twice.
then maybe, just maybe,
i wouldn't be so messed up now.
hmm.
FROM NEXT YEAR ONWARDS,
I WILL DO MY BEST
TO PAY ATTENTION
IN EVERY GODDAMN LESSON!
except chinese.
or if i'm really sleepy.
oh yeah, a new year, a new start.
right.
iwilliwilliwill!
but right now,
I JUST WANT THE FUCKING EXAMS TO ENDENDENDDD!!
I really think it's driving me mad!
and ahhh.,
geog sucks!
and the textbook sucks.
the textbook has so little information!
like i remember having to write
the funny deforestation essay
and i got the points she went through in class from paveta
like they're hardly in the stupid textbook!
with lousy sentence structures.
gahhhh.
and having a noisy grandmother does not help!
keep that in mind!
ahhh, i really don't wanna mess up geography!
i am rather scared.
ahh i wanna cry!!
right, i think i take things too seriously
and think too much.
if only my brain could actually explode
from thinking too much,
then i wouldn't have to go through all this
driving myself insane.
hmm.
but waitwaitwait!
i don't need to worry.
i'm alright.
becauseee, i have God.
He will guide me through the geog exam.
and every other exam for that matter.
and He will make the paper easy and smooth for me.
my God will just completely take over.
so i don't have to worry.
He will, just like with all my other exams where He did!
yay.
and God will give me amazing marks.
cause yeah, obviously
if i did it by my own strength,
i won't be able to achieve anything.
but with Him i can get everything!
so i'm just giving it all to Jesus.
yes, good.
i am calm.
i just want this to endd!

11:26 AM

♥Sunday, October 5, 2008.

ahhhhhhhh,
i wanna cryyyy!
exams are taking way too long to end!
why the hell is it taking so long?!
i think i'm going to go crazy!
what the hell is wrong with their planning skills!
GAH!!
i hate geography!
i hate school!
i hate studying!
i hate education!
DIEDIEDIEEEEEEEE!!!
OH! AND I HATE SHAN WEE!
omg, for constantly insulting mcfly!??!
who does he think he is!
with such a loser name.
idiot.
i want to drop out of schoollll!
i wish i were born into a crazy rich family!
then i wouldn't have to do anything til i died!
i'd rather live a life with no reason,
then go through stupid education shizz.
just slacking at home and rotting away.
partying my life away.
I WANT THAT!
i don't wanna have to work.
don't wanna have to use my brain!
just watch shows foreverrr!
i can finish off one tree hill.
i'd even buy all the box sets!
seeing that i was born into a crazy rich family.
friends too!
why do people in rich families still go to school!?
idiots!

11:38 PM

♥Saturday, October 4, 2008.

oooh yeah, haha
i had yami yoghurt for dinner!
how weird.
well, with some cereal.
and a granola bar.
but yeah, my mother was just like.
you're just eating this for dinner, ok?
and well yeah, i thought she was joking!
but okay, fine with me.
AHHHHH omg, i want exams to just end now!
it's like dragging on
into an eternal pit of doom!
ok, i couldn't think of a better word.
but yknw, exams suck!
i WILL party my ass off right after the exams!
mark my wordsss.
wednesday, wait for meeee!!
ok well, wednesday AFTERNOOON!
and i realised that i never actually
really spent my holidays well.
so i'm thinking i have a schedule on how to bum around.
how to waste time effectively.
haha, how ironic.
but yes.
hmmmm, i will try to crash paveta's house
to watch FRIENDS!!
hehe, chandler, here i come!
if i don't go out on wednesday,
after science):
the moment i come homee...
hmm, i'll watch my shows!
like heroes!
i MUST finish the season 2!
it's like waiting for me in my portable hdd thingy.
and for the few days that my parents would be away
but my grandma would be staying):
cause the tickets were all sold out.
oh well, at least i wouldn't have to do ALL the housework.
i might use those days to watch my mcfly
on the tv!
like my, omg!
PAVETA HAS YET TO RETURN MY WONDERLAND DVD!
HELLOOOO, PAVETA!
psht, yes i shall watch my mcfly tourss.
the radioactive dvd!
and some of the extra footage things
from liesss!
oooh heaven.
then ohoh!
i might have some asian drama thing going on.
my goong!
i have yet to watch it!
i bought the stupid dvd
but never watched it!
only watched it on tv.
so yes, i shall do that.
ahhh, english subtitles are my best friend.
ohoh, and if i don't get to go to paveta's house,
i shall borrow the friends!
watch it fast paveta!
please(:
and yes, i'm the first to book it!
remember that!
CLEARLYY!
OHOH! i shall borrow books toooo!
omgosh.
i do need to read fast as well.
need to use my time effectively.
shall not waste a minute of my bumming time!
of only 2+ months.
cause once i'm in sec 3):
omg, so sad.
treasuretreasuretreasure!
oh!
then all the movies i got from paveta.
those too.
OHH! i want to watch one tree hill!
haaaaa.
DAMN YOU EXAMS!
ENDDD NOWWWWWW.
DIE! NOT EARLY, NOWWWW!
i don't wanna studyyyyyyyyy.
I HATE EXAMS. UGHHHH.
IT REALLY IS DRAGGING ON FOREVERR.
time has never passed so slowly.
ok, maybe yes. hospital stays are the worst.
but yeah! no other exam.
has YET to past so slowly!
i'm sure as we grow up,
it's just gonna be worse.
yes, like my brother says
it never gets better.
oh, how depressing!

9:39 PM

♥Friday, October 3, 2008.

whoa ok, the math exam is overr!!
ah, so happy.
i was freaking out so much for math yesterday.
i always do for like 'real' exam papers.
like mid years end years.
i do quite think i'm crazy, yes.
BUT WHOO! IT'S OVERRR!
hehehe, so yes whilst in my mad freaking,
i just kept praying that
i would be able to do the paper well,
the next day-today.
and that i would be able to do it all smoothly.
and yeah!
really. in the morning i kept asking too.
so yes, He enabled me to do it all smoothly.
i even had extra time!
like half an hour for paper 1
and about 10 minutes for paper 2.
so now i'm putting the paper in God's hands.
that i may get really good marks! please.
yay, thank you.
and so ughh,
math papers make me exhausted!
ohoh, finally watched my mcfly bbc sound!
ahaha, so funny!
and cool!
like alot of street team people were on it.
and danny did some lip licking!
ahaha, sexy!
anddd he tried to dance!
oh, i love mcfly.
/edit
ahhh!!!
hahaha! i just watched mcfly dance on paul o'grady!
really late but i had no time!
i can't wait for exams to end
to watch my truckloads of mcfly videos!
ahaha!
omg! dougie is toooo cute!
he can't dance to save his life!
AHAHAHA! (':
i'm loving this!
exams must end know!
ugh, exams are so depressing.
yomo! go commit suicide and write a note first!

2:24 PM

I HATEHATEHATEHATEE MY FAMILY!
ha, since i only come home to make people angry,
why am i not allowed to stay over somewhere else.
oh yes, one less night to make you angry,
isn't that so.
FUCKING ASSHOLES.

12:01 PM

♥Thursday, October 2, 2008.

okay, i was just talking to xinyi
about how i want exams to be overr!!
then i have like 2 month holiday!
3 for her. -.-
but yes
You says (7:31 PM):
it's kinda like going to the toilet
You says (7:31 PM):
the closer you get, the more you want to pee

omg, i have no idea how that makes sense!
but whuttttttttttttt.
in the humble words of xinyi.
uhhuh,
anyway, i think i'll bathe now.
and do math later.
ihateexamsihateexamsihateexams!
i might edit this later. we'll seeeeeee.

7:32 PM

♥Wednesday, October 1, 2008.

ahhh.
i woke up at 10.30 today!
to do math.
and to make time for studying science.
i did do the revision worksheets.
but i don't know why
but i can't studyyyy!!
i can do homework, except exam papers.
but studying is harddd.
so after math, i got out all my slides.
procrastinated by going online to find out the order of the slides
cause apparently, i have to study it in order.
then finding out which ones
i have notes stolen from pearlyn?
on the slides.
so then! on to studying
i actually read through the stupid first chapter
cause that wasn't real things.
thennnnnn, i fell asleep at particle theory of matter.
being the second chapter.
ughhhh, now i feel sad.
I DO NOT WANT TO STUDY! ):
but i need toooooo
and the stack of slides are scaring me.
i shall go find previous exams and test papers!
at least make today productive enough.
and it's already so darkkkk
it's not a conducive environment to study in.
ok, ohmygod.
if i don't start science cramming,
today, which is almost over
since i've been trying to sleep by twelve.
which shows how hard i'm working for my studying!
if that makes sense.
cause see sleeping early prepares me for exams.
something like that.
ok, i feel better now.
ugh, i have a stomachache.
this is such a horrible day for studying.
but i do have more things to look forward to after exams!
my parents and grandmother would be going to kl!
cause my father needs to sign something.
and well, my grandmother always swops
from malaysia to singapore and back.
and my father also wanted my mother to go.
here's another good part,
I DON'T HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOOOL!!
for well two days.
good enough for me.
ahaha, thursday and friday.
but i remember that there was hockey.
so i figure for thursday,
i'll take train there myself.
and for saturday i can try to get my brother to fetch me.
oh right, yes
they're leaving
on wednesday night, the 15th
and coming back saturday night?
wheyyyyy.
i hope that empowers me for my power cramming!
oh yeah!
they showed ratatouille on disney today.
so fast!
but i was uh, kinda using the computer
for things not QUITE related to school.
actually notatall but.
I WOKE UP EARLY!
and after washing teeth, retainers and mouth,
which i think took about half an hour):
I DID MATH IMMEDIATELY!
yeah. so i'm good.
ugh, then have to mark math or something.
or lets see,
uh, i quote
'Failure to do so will result in 2 marks deducted for EOY maths exam. Dont believe? U can try it!'

yeah, it's even in whatever horrible colour she used.
ugh.
LET ME REPEAT.
FOR FULL EFFECT,
I HAAATEEEEEEEE EXAMS.
i'm fine with school, tbh.
is true.
it's only exams i can't stand.
sureeeee, i'll do all the homework you ask.
it's way better than studying to me.
END NOWWWW EXAMSSSSSSS.

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