♥Tuesday, September 16, 2008.
agh, today is such a horrible day!
chinese testttt, which i hope i don't fail!
i didn't know how to write like six out of ten words.
but omg! i actually understood the two of the passages!
and my head didn't hurt as much reading.
i think cause i was reading really slowly.
hahaha.
then oh!
ugh, science.
i didn't bring my slides):
so had to stand and copy the slidesssss.
at least there was chingah, jessie and tessa sim too.
hahaha, so funny.
but oh man, standing to long without moving,
makes my back hurt.
so it was a horrible hour.
then on the way home,
in the train at like toapayoh station?
i started getting crampsssss.
ohmygod, it was like going on,
getting worser and worser.
then when i reached bishan and had to walk,
that was killer.
the pain was making me cringe as i walked!
it was so horrible.
i think this is one of the worst cramps i've ever had.
i usually don't even really get much cramps!
but ouuuuchhhhhhhh)':)':
it's so hard to breathe tooooo.
felt like i was going to faint,
on my way homeee.
still hurts now, but at least i have my chair.
and now no good gossip girl videos are working!!
there's something wrong with megavideo!
so annoying, but ugh
just gonna watch from youku then.
since chinghan's watching right now.
hahaha.
oh and, a note for me to remember,
whenever i ask my mother to help me buy something nicely.
and she says that she will if she goes.
that means never. *rolls eyes*
ugh.
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argh, my mother's so annoying.
i hate her so much at times like these.
and oh yes, i'm so flattered.
that you have to pray in tongues,
because of me.
to ask for help over me or something.
hah. gee, thanks.
at least if you want to do it,
do it in your head or something,
don't have to say out so loud.
because i don't have feelings.
i do know why you're praying in tongues.
so well, yes bloody hell it is offending.
so i guess i know one of the real reasons,
why i didn't really want to go on holiday last year.
and i don't want to go again this year either.
because i'd have to spend those 10+ days
24/7 with them.
and previous years,
the holidays were with my cousins too.
so that wasn't so bad.
ah oh well,
i'll just do all that is in my power,
to stop any holiday plans!
i don't care if i have to stay in shitty singapore.
going overseas and having to go through all that
just isn't worth it.
wow.
hahaha.
and ughh, since i'm already ranting,
i shall go on a little more.
but well not all the way.
that'd be too much.
hahaha.
i hate all the stupid restrictions they give.
mostly only three.
but more on two.
1) i'm not allowed to stay over at friends' houses.
or anywhere in fact. except for camps.
and i asked why,
quiteeee nicely. well it was nice considering how angry i was.
not talking about now, last year i think.
yes, so i asked.
and they couldn't give me a damn reason.
wait let me try to remember what they said.
something like
"oh, that's just the rules of the house,
it's just those boundaries you don't question.
like movies, nc-21. you just can't."
yeah, it was something stupid like that, plus more.
lets analyse that shall we.
i'm ASKING WHY IT'S A STUPID FRIGGIN RULE.
and you're telling me it's a rule.
right, smart.
and well, they're always like,
ohhh why you never talk to me.
you can say anything, i always listen.
something along those lines,
just dumber.
but they go along and dismiss what i said.
and well, AHAHAHA!
nc-21! LOSER.
so yes, my point is.
at least if you have a proper reason,
i might accept it and not be angry about it.
but they don't have any reason at all!
like just wanting to have a stupid hold over me.
like a leash or something.
ok, hahaha.
right so,
2) not letting me get more piercings.
ok, well this one's relatively dumb.
but i want it alright!
this one, they also never really had a reason.
all my mother said was something like,
"ahyoo, so ugly! why you like! so ugly!
CANNOT!"
whut, just because she thinks it's ugly,
i can't do it?!!?
plus it's my own goddamn ears.
if it weren't for the fact that i wouldn't have money,
if i did it without permission.
hell yeah, i would have done it years ago.
i think in primary school,
like primary 4 or something,
when i asked.
my mother said something to do withh,
what would other people think.
they'll immediately have a bad opinion about you blabla.
and then her main point,
the one she actually really cares about-
oh later other people think,
aiyo, this mother so horrible,
let her daughter do all these things.
yes, because it's alll about youu.
if you don't want people to get that impression,
if you don't want me to spoil my image,
i'll stay away from you,
and you from me.
it's the best for everyone.
there is no real reason.
aghhh, i want i want i want.
damn those piercings that would be impossible to hide!
ah, getting to annoyed to blog now.
oh, and gossip girl was gooood,
and sad! but good(:
3:32 PM
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