yesterday you won't

♥Thursday, July 31, 2008.

well, today's the 31st of july,
so
HAPPY uh 18th? BIRTHDAY BROTHER!
being nice since he was the only one
who remembered or knew how old
i was on my birthday.
yay.
and damn, he got a proper cake!
i hate birthdays.

9:43 PM

♥Tuesday, July 29, 2008.

well, haven't been online much
these few days.
cause i've been kinda sick.
my brother says it's the haze?
whatever it is, i say it's cause monday was a holiday!
so it was a long weekend.
so yeah, you get it right.
and well, haven't been in the mood to go online either.
ahhh, i need to print out timetable soon.
it's killing me.
cause i don't know what lessons we're having
so UNORGANISED!
there needs to be a proper plan.
only then can you execute it well.
uh huh, or everything will dieeeeee
and burn in the depths of hell.
ugh, at least i have an almost sexy voice.

11:33 PM

♥Friday, July 25, 2008.

today was the best!
hehehe, i love hockey!
we got to skip school
and get cip hours!
best.
so yeah, we helped out in the radin mas sports carnival
we were in charge of hockey of course.
thennn, we got to umpire some mini matches
which i was terrible at.
eeeeeeps.
oh well, it was all a good learning experience.
hahahah!
then we spotted this super cute boy!
i think he's nine.
hahaha, sooo cuteeee!!
definitely gonna grow up to be a cute guy.
look out all you girls in his age group.
yeahhh.
then we went to prata cafe with coach.
hahaha, funny.
we went to sharmera's mansion to do the hockey signboard
for the learning fest tomorrow.
left earlyyy, for the delayed jamming!
with vishaki.
andd chinghan and rachel.
hahaha, and suet yi was late.
and almost got lost.
ok, so fineeee
vishaki's really good at the drums.
but pfff-t.
cause she already plays real drumss
so its easier.
yes.
ahh, so yeah, played til 9.30
then i had stomachacheeee
and they left.
whooo, great busy day(:
ugh, learning festival sucks
such a waste of our time!
but at least i don't have to do the stupid class one
haha, seeing rachel and all so stressed out! O.O
i get to do with hockeyyyyyy.
whooohoo.
thank god, tessa and i don't needa do muah chee
and omg!
stupid lulu gave me a demerit?!
for what?!
i did my corrections whaaat.
tsk, ugh oh wellll.
pffff-t

10:08 PM

♥Tuesday, July 22, 2008.

hmm, todayyy
was pretty alright.
time passed really fast.
cause of two tests in one day.
but yeah, not that bad, just chinese and english
no studying was needed.
just english essay and chinese paper.
but omg, i think i'm gonna fail chinese
ugh, i didn't understand the passage at allll.
i didn't know sheng li was winnnnn
i thought it was like perseverance or somethingg.
and i thought su was yu or something.
oh well, the horror is over.
i love the student forums.
hehehe, for my own special reasons.
things i like to dooo.
then yes! omgomgomggggggggggggggggggg
rockband came todayy.
when i was still in school.
and yeah, after assembly, i checked my phone
and my father texted me:
Phoebe, rockband is cool and fun!
when i read that i was like wth?!
i thought it was my brother using my father's phone
but yeah, it really is my father.
hahaha, so funny.
so yes, i called home straight away.
but... wii's not ready yet.
damn you ah beng seller.
butbut!
my brother's a genious.
he found some computer game.
and we could use he guitarrr!
what 'frets on fire'
hahaha, but yeah, just like rockband.
i could only play supaeasyyyy):
and apparently, the drums are playable on that game tooo!
multiplayer as well!
so vishaki , my crazy obsessed rock band girl,
no need to fret!
hahaha fret,
haaa.
but yeah, its alll goood
cause can either connect my tablet
or father's lappie to the tv!
so on big screen.
yeahyeah.
pffffffffffft, don't need the stupid wii.
ppppffffffftttttphhhhoooooooooi.
):
i want it nowwww.
hahaha
earliest friday latest monday-.-
but right now, i just keep banging the drums
to nothing.
hahaha, just makes me feel happy.
hmmm, and ahh there's math homework
and i need to learn sound!
still haven't learnt it yet.
and eee, ms ho called me up.
i was so scared. shiver shiver.
hahaha.
good thing paveta explained briefly to me
and ms ho went through a little before.
she's an awesome teacher!
like just in a minute, it all goes in.
ms ho i mean, not paveta.(:
haha,
after paveta, taught me,
she did the question wrong!
she's the biggest loser.
but yeah, it was careless.
haaa, stupid nonetheless.
ookay, my father just scratched his ass.
i shall go cry now,
for my lonely lonely rockband

10:52 PM

♥Monday, July 21, 2008.

training was good.
it rainedddd.
so kinda spent the time talking.
which was goooood.
and its actually thanks to you.
made me realised something.
hmmm, paveta knows.
oohh whoops,
i was writing halfway,
and there was a roach,
so i ran upstairs and closed the doooorr
and got distracted by mcfly.
hahaha.
anyway, today was gooooood
and the dhl tracking thing
said that they tried to deliver rockband
but no one was at home?!!
stupid brother was upstairssssss.
and i currently have no doorbell.
ugh, idiot brother. so useless.
but well, no wii to play it on):
should be getting it tomorrow NIGHT)':
i could just dieeee.
ok dinner.

6:00 PM

♥Saturday, July 19, 2008.

ahahaaaaaa! the pet thread is killing meeeeeeee
everything there is so goddamn cute!
all the cute kitties and puppies!
one of them looked like a mini polar bear!
hamsters toooo):
reminded me of mineee
i miss themmmm.
i want them baaackkkk.
and people in the uk have horses and ponies!
so cooool.
singapore has nothing!
nothing!
ohoh, they have tortoises as well.
but eurgh, don't like tortoises really.
disgusting.
ahhh, i really wish i were rich maaaannn
then i can get kittens!
of like pretty breeds.
and get a maid
so that i can get hamsters again
and the maid can clean and take care of
all the pets.
so my mother won't complain
and suddenly give them awayyyy
why didn't i object violently at that time!
whyyyy!
ugh.
andandanddddd
20th july tomorrowwwwww
radioactiveradioactiveeeeeeeee
and wow, angelina jolie's acting is pretty good
and with her slang.
haha.
oh and,
i hate bats!

10:07 PM

whoo last night sure was a waste of my time
damn.
and it made me skip hockey. -.-
true colours were shown
ah whatever.
i shall settle some business first
ok, since you're so special
geraldine: ok, you don't force water, whatever you say
i really don't care. you can call it tears if you want.
yes sure, i'd be happy to return you your
two dollars and eighty cents
with interest and service charge
will five dollars do?
oh and are you sure my physical pain is nothing compared to yours?
i could very well cut up your back
for you.
and really, that's just the teeniest bit of it.
not like paper cuts, is it.
its not just physical btw
and you'd prolly say yours isn't tooo-.-
and wth is with your so whats.
i didn't ask you what you felt.
just stating something.
and oh please,
my father and brother only have once again
the teeniest part of it.
did i even say it was because of them.
and your mother's common too.
i'd like to say more about this 'mother' thing
but i'll just leave you to wallow in your self-pity
i shall end it here.
and if you do reply this,
i hope you don't though,
bunch of empty words.
don't do it with all your so whats again.
and to this you'd prolly go
so what if i say so what!
haha.

anyway
i had a great dream last night!
but as all dreams go,
it's sad when you wake up
and it's not real
i dreamt that i had many pets!
puppies and kittens to be exact
like theeee cutest ones.
and they all kept running to meee
their fur was all so nice and smooooth and soft
i think my kittens were white
then like something bad happened
which i really can't recall anymore
and the puppies became evil??
and ran to the balcony
yeah.
so i closed and locked the door
and had quality time with...
no not iva,
but my whitey kittys
so yes, i like kittens
better than puppies
xinyi has a whacked up mind
xinyi just sucks
yes you do.
i think i had this pet dream
cause i've been spending too much time
on the street team's pet thread!
with the cutest pets everrr
not as cute as my white kitties though
and ohh, i was talking to pearlyn on msn
we tried to think of ways to die
accidentally
haha, if only they'd work
they'd require fast reflexes
and a not all-knowing God :/
ahh.
and omgosh!
i bet iva's super proud of me!
i'm trying with dreamweaver!
for the website!
but i'm not sure if i'm doing it right or not!
i'm such a computer illiterate person!
it's quite sad!
cause my brothers went out!
ugh.
but all that matters
is that i'm trying
rightt ivaaaaaa.
ok, i feel good.
i never thought i'd actually do it
heheh, like the powerpoint
but i'm gooooood.
ugh, next week is wonky
four tests.
two on tuesday
two on thursday
i have low stress tolerance level?
haha, and math and science on the same dayy!
i don't want to grow upppp
just put me in a coma now now NOW!
but well, brightside
vishaki might be coming to jam with me
hahaha!
rockband!
and vishaki apparently wants to do a tribal dance
i hope to take a video of it
and yknw.
for future use of.
BLACKMAIL!
beware vishaki bewaaareeee.
now all i need is the sole part of it
the console itselffffffff
i want my wiiii!

6:14 PM

♥Friday, July 18, 2008.

ok sold the wii.
to a policemen.
yes, including the illegal games.
naughty naughty boyyy.
he came over to test it out.
and sold for 470!
hope we get the new wii soon.
i'm dying here.
today was pretty alright.
but i don't feel like i'm getting any better
never will.
so yeah, oral was ok.
it think i kinda messed up.
with the mixing up of words.
i was like rearranging the later part of the passage.
and well turned the picture into a conversation at first.
ah whatever.
no hopes. so i'll be fine.
i wish i could get used to it after more than a year
of all these.
nothing compared to your seven months huh.
seven months of nothing.
having a perfectly functioning body
(i'd like to say fit, but i can't)
all you've ever thought about is yourself
look around you.
people have much worser lives.
not just me but most.
attention seeking with all your water.
trying to force it out
but oh, it doesn't come.
so fine then, since you want attention so much,
here's some now. -.-
complaining about things that's non-existent
about us as well.
how do you expect us to still be there.
you never tried, we did.
but its just too much,
i have my own problems to deal with
i have more of a sad life then to be bothered
with yours
and please stop blaming us for your stupidity
that's really just you as well.
take your rightful blame and stop dumping it on everyone else
so,
at least my chinese
is 'fakely lousy'
as for your english,
i wish i could say the same...
but, NO
dang.
hope i didn't hurted your 'low ego' there.
at least i know i suck.
but i don't want you to tell me that.
we do see how you push her around too
one more thing,
you're as real as pamela anderson's boobs.

i want to go into a coma,
and die after 10 years

8:09 PM

♥Thursday, July 17, 2008.

ugh, everything always goes wrong
some asshole backed out of the wii deal
after meeting my brother
he like took out everything and observed it
looking for like excuses to cut down the price
and yeah, ohhh! i scratch! -.-
that you can hardly see.
you need to like hold it at an angle.
wow, congratulations on being sharp
too bad you're still an ass.
no sympathy for you there.
ugh, fuck you!
and so because of himmmmm,
my brother found a place that sold
at a hundred dollars cheaper.
BUT its only available on 1 august
great.
two things.
1) i will die waiting so long,
rockband will reach on like what?
sunday? monday?
but i'd have nothing to play it on.
2) vishaki would be gone by then.
awesome.
my rockband was supposed to be
my bright ray of hope of maybe finally, happiness
but yes, its me we're talking about
and nothing ever goes right for the life of phoebe
vj, was my only hope as well.
so really, i have no more expectations anymore
not going to hope
whats the point really
you just fall harder.
and it hurts more and more everytime.
whats the point in ever believing.
if its never going to happen.
so geog test today,
so whatever i get is what i get.
doesn't matter does it.
anyway, on a slightly bright side
i can't believe i don't feel so happy about it now
i'm supposed to be happy and excited about it
for a long time.
oh well, happiness comes and goes fast
everything good does.
but yeah, my mother's friend's sister in law
subcribes to mail on sunday.
so free mcfly album.
whoohoo.
i feel like such a horrible fan
never feel like watching the videos anymore.
and when i do,
i don't get the same good happy feeling i used to.
life's killing me.
hah.
what's living for anyway?
i really don't see the point.
and oh yes, another joyous thing
my back is really getting worse
it was hell during training
what's happening?
i hate slow torture,
just kill me now.

i wish i had something i could be proud of.

11:42 PM

♥Monday, July 14, 2008.

ok, i'm making a post with no one reading it
heehee, cause well
its private with no one invited.
i'll solve it soon.
how troublesome.
anyway!!
i hate chinesee!
with the stupid recording stuff
omg, i haven't done it.
it was due on saturday!
die.
and i don't know so many words!
she's gonna kill
but i think i'll just give up
its making my head hurt
i'll prolly regret it tomorrow.
oh welll.
i hate school.
crescent to be exact
and i still haven't gotten over it
not anytime soon really.
all the things it could've been.
i hate time.
anyways,
whooo!
mcfly's single's are out
sooo, the acoustic recorded versions
offff, POV and do ya are out!
and the new song!
falling in looveeee.
ahh its so awesome!
falling in love is too cute.
they were just out today/yesterdayish
i'm finally on time!
yay.
ahh, i love mcfly.
i hope my mother's friend's sister-in-law
can get her hands on that free album!
pleaseeee.
i really need something good in my life
right now.
anyway!
really cute pictures from an interview
to make myself happy(:
ugh, everything's going wonky on me!
so annoying!
and omg, i just watched the video
where some crazy guy went on stage!
and like clung on to dougie!
so horrible!
'get the fuck off!'
hahaha, dougie's so cuteeee.
oh and i went to check the prices!
yesterday, for rock band and guitar hero
gh3 isss 125
and rockband's 415 i thinkkk!
i forgot!
i want iwant, probs gonna ask daddy tomorrow.
suck up a lil;)
I HATE CHINESEE!!

1:07 AM

♥Thursday, July 10, 2008.

hmm, i actually quite like e-learning
don't know why some people don't like it!
or maybe cause i haven't really checked
all the homework yet.
but it's still better than going to school
love the whole own time thing
yepp, good thing i went to chinghan's house
for e-learning.
so that i could keep up with whats going on
didn't know what i was supposed to do at all!
haha, and yeahhh copying answers(:
andand like omg,
she totally ratted out on me!
told ms loo i was sleeping!
but i don't think she saww.
so yeah, suet yi, rachel, yimin, vishaki and jimin went too.
ok, dinner now.
i'll be back.
ok, back.
so then we watched moviees.
then we explored chingy's roooom!
hahah, so cool man.
but her brother and her are separated by a wall!
haha, and her sheets are nice.
pretty cool room.
it was fun(:
might be coming to my house tmrw.
and omg, my right back hip's been hurting.
like since the macbeth day.
i'm pretty freaked out.
i hope its nothing bad.
it should be fine.
and oh!
macbeth was fun(:
went pearlyn's for gh3!
and eeee awesome.
then paveta lost track of time!
and we were about an hour late.
then white dog!!
and while the only upside about not getting vj,
was like rachel and chinghan were being nice to me!
hahaha, but i'd rather not:/
yes, so chinghan's sister was really cool!
thennnn,
ohoh!
my draven stuff came todayy!
but well its not that good.
the shoes are really really nice!
omg, i loooove them.
my hoodie tooooo!
the thing isssssssssss.
my shoes are tooo smalllllll!!!
and my mother is one of the most
insensitive people out there.
she was like nevermind!
i can fit,
no need to exchange.
excuseee meee!
MY shoes!
it is not okay!
then she scolded me for saying no.
hah, thanks.
even rachel and chinghan are nicer.
ahhh, i want to exchange!
anyone want to sponser meee.
for the shipping costs.
uhm, about $50 there and back.
every dollar helps!
pleasepleaseplease.
i want my lovely shoes.
oh well, my life sucks
shoulda just expected it.
oh, but i won, 750,000 pounds!
wow. sure.

7:41 PM

♥Wednesday, July 9, 2008.

I can't appeal.
so, i guess i'm just stuck with this.
but i don't want it.
it hurts.
i'm not good enough for ANYTHING.

12:16 PM

♥Tuesday, July 8, 2008.

ok, after crying my eyes out.
about vj.
i guess you know how it is.
ok, haha, after?
who am i kidding.
i can't fucking stop myself.
i don't know what to do.
i don't know how to tell my family
not because they'd be angry or disappointed.
but i'm just so embarrassed.
at failing at every fucking thing i try.
and i really wanted this.
why.
i fail at every single thing.
hahahaha.
in hockey.
the sec ones are better than me
who am i to judge.
i'm not in c div
not gonna be b div either.
not going to be in anything.
my parents keep asking me
'oh are you in the school team'
i'd be just like oh not yet.
when the truth is,
i never am going to be in it.
NEVER.
NOT EVER AM I GOING TO SUCCEED IN ANYTHING
NEVER.
EVER.
i really wanted to be good at hockey.
but i suck.
its never going to be better.
i hate my back.
i don't want to get used to it!
i hate it!
i just want it gone!
and everyone goes on about oh
how lucky am i
no mass run.
no pe.
but you have no idea.
what the real deal is.
its killing me.
i hate failing.
i hate disappointments.
one after another.
they just keep coming.
i hate having hopes
it just makes it hurt more.
haha, stupid as it is
i actually thought i had the slightest bit of a chance
cause i prayed for it.
so i believed.
but where the fuck is it.
i also believed that i would be good at hockey.
hahaha, why.
its not there either.
believed that how people in hockey wouldn't hate me anymore.
but nope, don't think so either.
ah, i'm just gone.
i can't type properly.
can't think.
i'm just shaking.
trying not to cry and wail
at the top of my lungs.
i just wish for a few seconds
i were the only person on earth
and i could just let it all out.
oh, i'm just rambling.
you're prolly sitting there
oh what a stupid thing.
yeah, hah, i guess so.
but i can't take it anymore.

1:07 AM

♥Monday, July 7, 2008.

okay!
went out with vishaki, ching han, yimin, rachel, jimin and pearlyn!
today.
went bowling at marina.
and omg, i suck so bad now!
my score was like what 40?
i got 90++ last time!
really.
but vishaki and pearlyn had to leave halfway.
so after bowling went for dinner
at yoshinoya.
quite horrible actually.
haha, but better than seafood or food court.
then we walked around a bit
window shopping
haha, so funny.
yeah, it was fun
but ching han, rachel and jimin are so mean):
sooo macbeth tomorrow!
going out for the whole day.
hopefully.
and shoes this time?
heeheee.
mm, pbl online discussion now.
and i need to do so many things!
ok not really.
but uh, print out science slides
and doing the science theory
but if i'm feeling really lazyy,
i think i'll just copy tomorrow morning.
hahaha.

10:05 PM

omg, i reallyreallyreally wish i were rich!
oh dear god, hear my cry!
and not just rich
but like very very rich!
multi-millionaire.
if my father were a multi-millionaire or even billionaire,
and kinda in a way shared his wealth with me
letting me buy absolutely anything i want
for example my bags which i am currently obsessed with!
the balenciaga arena hobo and motorcycle bag!
andand the hermes shoulder birkin!
eeeeps, i'm in love
hahaha.
ok so, if thats the case
i'll really looove my father
and never complain about him
so yes, i wanna be rich!
please please please!
why can't i be rich!
or maybe just be victoria beckham
with her crazy collection of hermes bags.
ugh, McFly marry me now!
atm, i wouldn't marrying some really rich old man
hahaha, if i could buy anything i want.
eeheeehee.
alright, i'm going crazy.
but yknwww, if anyone wants to buy any of those for me
i welcome you with open arms.
iwantiwantiwant!
anyways,
my brother spoilt my stylus!
wtf.
ok, maybe not
but maybe!
cause well, he used to keep blaming me!
for 'spoiling his' computer.
when it was not my fault at all!
so well, he used it last!
ugh, gonna have to change the tip thingy
but first to find it.
hmmm.
and my brother!
is so disgusting!
omg, he said that in the shower,
he found a dead insect in his hair
omfg! he's like some dirty dog,
with fleas.
just that the insect. died.
sick.
hmm, so
tmrw's gonna be fun!
the week's gonna be fun
and well today was fun tooo.
its sorta sunday btw.

1:58 AM

♥Saturday, July 5, 2008.

ahhh omg!
my mcfly tour book is sold out!
AGAIN!
omgoshhhh.
urgh, chinghan all you fault!
):
i hope they get more stock.
pleaseeeeee.
i want i want i want.
anyway, check out my new wants!
hahaha.
balenciaga bags are really damn nice
heheh, i aint no bimbo shizzazz
or whatever you want to call it.
it is really cool.
hmm ok, i guess thats all.
hahaha, just wanted to complain!
my poor tour boooooook.
and my internet's being a bitch(:

11:30 PM

oooh, lord of the rings now!
return of the kinggg.
but pfft, already watched it in the cinema
the other two too.
haha, so awesome.
ahh, i love them all!
except frodo and sam and like the baddies
but like frodo and sam are the mains
hmm, but they're boringggg
and sam's annoying
i love my orlando bloom, aragon,
gandalf, the short fat dwarf
haha, all so cute.
we should have a lotr marthon
with my dvds with special stuff
to educate people like paveta
who only watched the first one
and prolly didn't understand a thing
how PATHETIC
yes.
heehee.
so anyway
did cip with rachel and ching han today
it was pretty ok
but rachel and chinghan suck ok!
so mean and annoying
but yay!
six hours.
this week's been pretty good
and next week's gonna be totally awesome tooo!
omgosh, as stupid and idiotic as vishaki is,
she really makes my week.
she brightens everyone up!
hehehe, stupid vishaki(:
I LOVE (bullying) YOUUU.
really.
ahhh, i don't want her to go back
why are you staying for such a short period of time!
vishaki whyyy!
ugh, you are the worst.
stay her foreverrr.
i have an extra bed
when my granny's not her
but if she is,
you can just sleep on the floor or in the garden!
under the stars.
hahaha, don't go backkkk!!
how sad.

10:49 PM

♥Friday, July 4, 2008.

well today was pretty okaayyy
pathetic half hour youth day celebrations
then well lessons as usual.
then after school
jimin, paveta, chinghan, rachel and i kinda stayed back?
just to mess around a bit
heehee.
took quite a few photos
seduced chinghan in two of themm
and jimin in one
hahaha!
then real life hangman
too bad no one got hanged
then well decided to go out with rachel, chinghan and jimin!
couldn't decide where to go though
so i just said raffles
and i apparently brought them to the wrong place
oh booohooooo.
and they keep calling me stupidddddddd
so meannnnn)':
i'm not stupid!
i know how to do stuff okay
so, we mostly spent our time eating!
went soup spoon
and i ate the cesar salad
since my brother said it was nice and filling
and oooh, it was
the others ate/drank horrible mushroom soup
the soup's alright
but the mushrooms in it are the worst
just talked alot
can't really remember about what
but defo something dumb
i mean what can you expect from people like that
pppfffffffffffffffffttt.
then we got fried mars bars
and talked again
started bitching about some people?
and thats when they started to keep calling me stupid
hunh, thanks
but i can do those things!
can't believe i gave you guys
my beloved plum candy thingy.
such a waste!
i want them back now please.
and omg, then we went to marina
and jimin is the worst!
like outside marina
there are like bushes?
and she spat her seed there!
and kept telling me to do it too
and ahemididahem.
she tried teaching me
but mine hit the leaves
and bounced off to the floor!
not the soil):
so embarrassing
ugh, so welll
today was pretty fun
haha, TUESDAYY!
I INSIST.
and oooooh,
ching han's (and jimin-.-) taeyang does have nice chocolates.
yummy.

9:08 PM

♥Thursday, July 3, 2008.

oh man,
i'm damn sad noww
apparently, miss chew thought that i said no!
to hosting the nz girl
and now its too late
they've found someone else
urghhh, so wastedddd
the girls would be damn cool
they're like older
like sixteen?
it could've been so fun man!
feel so disappointed!
ahhh, my once in a lifetime chance
hahaha.
oh well:/
at least i have a money faced friend
like chinghan
(i mean like who else)
who helps me find and cut english newspaper articles
for 20 cents
puts away dirty plates at the other end of the canteen
for 10 cents per plate
and well the more expensive services
like chinese newspaper article
for 100 cents
haha, omg
so all i have to say is,
tbh, chinghan you are a loser
so easily drawn in by money
and my sensual seduction.
(HAHAHA)
you need to learn more self control. darling
hahahaha
or maybe not
its fun and good to make use of you
and your weaknesses.
it'd be so funny if in our later years
she really becomes rich
i'd go and claim my porsche then.
so anyway,
training was alright today.
it is kinda getting better?
i communicated more with the sec ones today
haha, and after training
was bonding time with tessa
hahaha, and oh. my. god.
i hereby conclude that tessa is crazy.
and she's my new boytoy.
out with the old (paveta) in with the new.
cue for tessa: i love you.
and for future reference,
i DID NOT hear that we were supposed to wear class tee
p.s. i'm gettng freaked out by blackberries
with condensation.

10:34 PM

♥Wednesday, July 2, 2008.

highlight of the day!:
D&T.
haha, nahh
ok hold on
my father is a total ass
and i hate him
what the fuck
a bat just flew into the living room and into the kitchen
so obviously i screamed
it was massive and black.
and he scolded me
oh yes,
i can't scream when i'm scared
i should just keep it in
and explode
yes, thanks.
eurgh, whatever.
i hope you get bitten by a million bats
and die a horrible death
like theee worst ever
lets plan it out shall we
first the bats shall attack you
bite and whatever they do til you're going to die
especially in the places that hurt.
even though yours are prolly too tiny to get bitten
loser.
then they will carry you
by all your disgusting strands of old man hair
they would fly vigorously for extreme pain
and a massive mama one would continue pecking?
they would drop you from the highest
that they can that you won't die YET
oh the fun part
this is where i come in
i come with a set of carving knives
i will first saw off all your toes and fingers
slowly with a blunt knife
for maximum pain.
then time for a sharp one
i will carve out your skin
thin and thick
whichever hurts more
ohoh!
i'll get a small sharp knife
and poke your eyes
and try to pull it out
are there going to be veins?
if there are,
i'd get another knife
and saw them.
wait but if he dies from that
i'll do that later
he has to have more pain first
need to d more research.
so yes, after i carve out all his skin
and reach the muscles
hmm, what would i dooo.
dang, i'm running out of ideas.
maybe i'd come with acid?
just experiment a bit
poke wholes in the muscles
oh how good that would feeel.
i would carve the face and all too
oh wait!
before i cut off the fingers and toes
i will peel or cut or whatever out the nails first!
ahhh.
can't believe i forgot that.
so i might come back with more ideas another day
ohh how amazing that feeling
of stabbing you cutting you up
your cries of pain
and begging for mercy
you'd ask why
and i'd just laugh
cause he's an asshole
i'd say that i hate him
always have always will
ahaa killing you with my own bare hands
ok, i'd totally wear gloves.
disgusting.
don't want his germs and diseases all over me
okay, THAT would be one of the happiest day of my life
what an awesome father i have.

ok right, whoa, big detour!
haha anyway
yeahhh,
highlight of the day was vishakiiiiii
we were just waiting for that
heeheee
so then jimin, suet yi and me
went out with her firsttt
oh god, vishaki's such an idiot!
did so many dumb things
banged into a poster!
so then we met yimin at plaza sing
pizza hut then starbucks
just mostly talking
and oh man suet yi and yimin
with their heart 2 heart talk
hahaha!
i've missed you vishakiiiiiiiiiii
dirty shakira(;

11:22 PM

♥Tuesday, July 1, 2008.

alright, today was pbl presentation!
so there wasn't any school.
it was boring though
but at least air-conditioned.
i guess my group was okay.
hahaha, stupid suet yi with her shockingly devasting
and iva was so funny
with her mistakes.
which at least made our group
not thaaaat boring
and i had pretty nails today
which kept me entertained
for assembly
well, nothing much really happened todayy
ohoh!
ok wait, i'm feeling really pissed off now
cause i can't find my video cam charger!
and it has no battery at all
and i want it for tomorrw.
URGHHH.
and my mother refuses to help me find it
happy thoughts happy thought
i have no fucking happy thoughts
wait, right vishaki
oookay.
which is kinda the reason why i want to bring my camera
so it all goes down to her!
she made me angry
actually its mostly my mother
and you know what i doo when i'm angry at her
ok you don't
but i doooo.
okay yeah anyway
nj people know their results already!
and like practically everyone got it
ah seee nj's lousy
ok kidding
but it still is lousy
but not because of this
hmmmmmmmm
no news from vj yet
i want to call in tooo!
haha bugger them everyday
OOOOOOH VISHAKI'S COMING TOMORROW!!
YEEHAH!
I CANNOT WAITTTTT
for school to end
heehee.
you can finally get your LOST surprise
damn cool.
but urgh;thkjeh
i can't show you second surprise
OOH WISHKI VISHKAI VISHAKI!

11:47 PM