yesterday you won't

♥Tuesday, February 26, 2008.

got quite pissed off after school today
not cause of the tablet thing
but whatever.
i'm not an idiot
and my father is a total ass-.-
UGH.
i HATE HIM
i mean its like what the fuck
you dont even know me at all
last year.
like a few days after my birthday
less than a week
and he didnt even knw how old i was
great 'dad' great.
and he tries to set all this stupid rules
when he doesnt even knw whether its
'for my own good'
and when i ask for a proper reason
he has none-.-
i just have to listen and obey.
at least for my mother its fine.
she knows me and sort of understands me
at least she knws how old i am-.-
and what she doesnt allow me to do
she has a reason that i understand
and my mother is actually really nice.
but she gets totally brain washed
and controlled by the asshole
my mother actually thinks its ok to do some of the stuff
but he'd be like
ohhh, its no good.
CANNOT!
like my mother was going
to let me skip school on thursday and friday.
but he found out
and was like all angry.
and said that i cant do that
that i have to go to school
its part of my 'job'
wtf, job?
he doesnt even know what i do in school
and just like everything
try to act like the good responsible parent
yeah right.
last year,
when i was looking for i cable
i looked in his drawer
and whoohoo,
guess what i found
porn cds-.-
and like disgusting sick books.
i was like so disgusted.
he's always telling us ohh,
dont watch pornography
its bad. stuff like that.
and whoopdeedoo.
there they are in your drawer
you sick pervert.
i was actually embarrassed about that
a long time ago
but i finally came to my senses
and i dont really care.
i dont really even regard you as my father anymore
dont knw why i even bothered.
but i am still disgusted
that i have like his genes and blood and stuff.
its just sick.
i wish i was adopted
excpet for my mother(:
i have no idea what in the world my mother saw in him
i really wish for my mother to divorce him
and find a proper husband and father
please.

10:55 PM

♥Saturday, February 23, 2008.

ohh, and i want a ddr mat tooo.
hahah. for the wii(:
yes, i want lots of stuff.
GET THEM FOR ME NOWWW!
yeah, ok fineee,
please?
NOW!
hahaha.
yea, suddenly having all these
little crazes over stuff.
and managed to study home ec
and science except the nutrients
cause there was something wrong
with my printouts,
and i wanted to watch 50 first dates.
and it was nice!
i like.
so anyways,
didnt study yesterday.
cause i was going on strike.
hahah.
for my father being a complete asshole
ohohoh!
and i planted some seeds
from the sunflower xiyuan gave(:
since it was drying up
but nothings happening!
its been so long!
like three days!
nothing at all!
ugh.
i think i cant be like a farmer
or planter or whatever,
too impatient.
i kept watering the seeds.
the soil looked too dry.
so i thought maybe thats the reason
why they are so inactive?
hahah.
so yea.
then my brother was like
eh if you water too much it'll get waterlogged
and the seeds will diee.
so yeahh. fine.
HURRY UP AND GROW ALREADY YOU DAMN SEEDS!
TAKING SO FRIGGIN LONG!
RAPIDO RAPIDO!
JUST GROW INTO SUNFLOWERS ALREADY!
WHY ARE YOU TAKING SO LONG!
YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU NEED!
WATER, SUNLIGHT AND AIR?
HURRY UP YOU STUPID SEEDS,
DAMMIT!
taking so damn long-.-
oh, and i have nice roses in the garden again(:
got a yellow one recently.
was going to give it to verity,
but i forgot to bring it
and now there's an orange one!
its really nice and pretty.
the orange it nice!
cool.

10:43 PM

♥Friday, February 22, 2008.

ohohoh!
and i want a tickle me elmo
AND cookie monster!
hahaha.
extra special edition tickle me elmo
and tickle me cookie monster.
just a subtle hint(:
preferably get it now!(:
ahahaha! that tickles!
thats so funny!
eeeheehee!
yepp, paveta i knw you're in a good mood
and feeling kind(:
and have ALOT of angbao money.
feeling really generous t your dear friend here
yeah, thats all.
just a little hint.
bye

10:52 PM

alrightt, whoohoo
exams are over!!
ok not yet-.-
two more days.
and aaacckk.
i think i'm gonna be sick
from all my hard hard studying
like maybe a flu? headache.
that kinda stuff.
dont you feel so too paveta?
i know you do.
we must have passed it to each other.
and i foresee into the future
that we might be sick on thursday and friday.
(and its definitely not because we want to boycott the stupid school
for giving us our damn tablets later than the stupid sec ones.
after we had to wait for one fucking year! yeah, of course not)
and ugh, so annoyed with my father
as usual.
and yesterday's english and history was quite alright
english was wayy easier than the usual stuff she gives us
quite happy with history
managed to write something
even though mr tham
go shinglesO.o
and couldnt come teach us.
and i really think that he's an awesome teacher
teaches us the right stuff unlike
some people-.-
and chinese and lit today.
chinese was horrible
as usual.
but dont really care.
the multiple choice ones i just guessed everything
see which one looked the nicest and most appealing
cause i spent a lot of time on the stupid compre
took so long to read the passage!
didnt understand most of it
felt so retarded.
but oh well, its just chinese.
hahah.
and the old teacher was so annoying!
kept walking around
shuffling her feet noisily.
just sit at the stupid table dammit!
we were obviously not cheating or anything-.-
i got so annoyed, i kept tsking as loud as i could
to like hint.
but she still kept walking
so i gave up and just put my leg out
to block her.
and it worked(: yay.
ok, shall go watch tv now.
or print out my science slides.-.-

10:29 PM

♥Saturday, February 16, 2008.

um okay, ching han passed this on to me
since i'm so interesting,
i shall do it(:
hahaha.
here we go

a. list seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
b. tag seven people to do the same.
c. do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

a)
1. i like the smell of the rubbish chute in my house,
whenever i'm bored and no ones around,
i'd go and smell it(: (god im so weird)

2.i dream about mcfly ALOT but its quite depressing.
and i actually think i have a chance with them(:

3.i like to vent my anger on my family.

4.i want to be and actress. heehee. really.

5.i like the smell of the old lifts.

6. i make up love stories in my head. and they're really goood(:

7. i have different laughs for different things

b)
1.sitira
2.elvina
3.aww, there's no one else everyones been taken up
4,5,6. anybody(:

12:33 AM

♥Friday, February 15, 2008.

whoohoo.
got my mcflyyy stuff today
greatest hits dvd and wonderland dvd
FINALLY!!!
yay(:
watched all already.
andand the greatest hits one
has all of mcfly's music videos!
yes! so i could watch in on big tv.
ohhyeahhh.
ahhhaha
their concerts were super funny
ohohoh, there were behind the scenes too
LOVED IT
ahhh, they were so cute and hott.
i love how dougie does his head banging
hahaha,
and danny with all the weird actions
he does when he plays his guitar.
ohhh, and at the end of the wonderland one
dougie was like smashing his guitar
kept throwing it around
and then he pushed over a speaker
and he went and tried to 'throw' tom too.
hahaha, he's such and idiot.
awww, after watching danny with his straightened hair,
i'm sort of missing it again
it makes him look younger!
which is good!
but au naturale is good too(:
ahhh, all thier jumping around was so cute
hottie hot hotties(:
and my mother saw dougie's lip ring
and thought he bit his lip?
weird.
and the like 'format' of the greatest hits
is like really different from mito and wonderland
and prolly cause its in a different place
from the two.
but its quite cool.
ahhahahaha
when's mcfly coming to singapore??!!):

11:43 PM

♥Sunday, February 10, 2008.

oh but there is some good news(:
got my ds on friday(:
my crimson ds.
whoohoo.
but it costed more
was like 320 dollars
not counting the game.
which was 60?
an i'm going to buy the illegal r4 thingo
which is 80?
andandand.
going to get new asics shoes(:
anddd, tmrw's half dayy.
whoohoo.
yepp

7:15 PM

awww,
chinese new year is overr.
the holidays are over.
theres school tmrw!!):
but at least its half day.
so anyway.
got really little ang bao money,
as usual -.-
and i didnt go kl this year(:
but i have a really really nice (and rich(:)
grand aunt
she gives like 100 ringgit to
all the unmarried relatives when we visit for cny
like not only do we get her really good food,
but MONEEHH.
and even though we didnt go visiting this year,
she still gave us our 100 ringgit!
so nice!
she gave my uncle and auntie from kl
to give us when they came
ohoh,
and my great grand ma gave too.
but its not really her giving
cause she's like really weak.
ugh, having relatives in malaysia sucks
seeee, its all my fathers fault again
pffft. -.-
so yeah, actually this year only had
one reunion dinner,
wait actually, lunch.
cause they invited everyone from my mothers side
all at once to my uncles house.
so no need to go visiting to get ang baos(:
so other than that
and like meals with my uncle, aunty and grandma
who came from malaysia,
no reunion stuff.
quite boring really.
anddd, today sucked-.-
after church we went to stupid marina deck for lunch
some lousy restaurant, cause my father knows the boss,
then we keep going there
even though everyone hates it
except him.
then cause someone cancelled(long story)
we are going there for dinner.
AGAIN!
TWICE IN A DAY!
once a year is bad enough
but what the f@#$
two times in a f@$%ing day.
ughhh. O.O
pffft.
off to the horrible place now -.-
stupid father
stupid stupid father!

6:59 PM

♥Wednesday, February 6, 2008.

reply to shaki tags(:
hahah yay(: didyoucry didyoucry??(:
no la. and you're welcome, glad you like it
i only said you were sexy cause it was your birthday
and lets seeee(:, its not your birthday anymore!
no more sexy. TEEHEEE. hahah.
yay, you miss mee.
we ALL miss you.
the whole class i bet
cause tbh i really think no one didnt like you at all
you never offended anyone or anything like that
such a good and nice lil girl
and yes it was my great great awesome idea:D
but yeah, i was really useless):
hahah, even YOU were more useful *gasp*
hahaha. yeah, ok byebye(:

10:15 PM

♥Monday, February 4, 2008.

and ugh, my mother bought
new body soap
really disgusting
some shokubutsu ANTI BACTERIA body foam
now i smell like floor detergent-.-

10:52 PM

ok, its vishaki's birthday today.
i think. i hope. otherwise this is so embarrassing.
but so yea,
going to TRY to make a touching and nice post
for vishaki
which is hard.
so, anyways
this post it dedicated to the oh-so-sexy(sexier than shakira,) VISHAKI!
see i'm being so nice, i called you sexy
since its your birthday, i'll make you happy
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST VISHAKI!
i did it in green, cause it's your favourite colour right? i hope so:/)
yes, happy birthday(:
hope you had/have fun
but you must cry when you read this k
i know it'll be hard
but i dont care
just poke your eyes or something
or i'll go to australia to poke them for you.
hahah.
right.
really hope you managed to make new friends
in your new school
but no matter how many new ones you make
(i'm sure you'll make alot,
you're just so nice and funny(:)
you're not allowed to forget us
whoo, right,
i'm being so cheesy.
this sucks -.-
alright,
i never got to celebrate your birthday with you before
cause i didnt really know you then
sad, wasted opportunity.
hahah, i rmbr when
you first came to 1c1
you transfered in
you were like pretty awkward
and no one really talked to you ithink
cause everyone had their cliques already
and i though you were weird(:
and i was right.
hahah. no la.
didnt know how funny and dumb you were.
then oooh, you were in my pbl grp(:
then started to get to know you better
ans found out you were
a fellow LOST fan
lost is so cool
and cool and smart people
like ourselves
can appreciate and understand
all the other losers preferred prison break
pffft-.-
then you would keep asking me
if i liked jack and kate
but i'd say not really
cause i liked it for the cool storyline
then you'd give me some kind of face
hahah.
can still remember it:)
cute.
but i almost forgot what you looked like
eeps, so i quickly went looking for pictures(:
sorry:/
hahah.
then in pbl i'd keep saying
that you were really useless
but actually i was more:D
but i thought of the problem k!
sort of.
and its not my fault,
i was stuck in the hospital
and was practically paralysed
but yeah,
you're pretty useful
for your falling down(:
yepp yepp.
then you started your stupid shakira nonsense
you tried shaking your hips
and dancing like shakira
right.
but not to worry
we got you a shakira bear
she can teach you how to be sexy like shakira(:
then you introduced me to the fried rice!
the vegie stall
which was really nice
oooh.
then i rmbr you were eating it
with the big chinese soup spoon
so weird la-.-
haha.
and yea i rmbr weird random stuff
andand and you were trying t go on a diet!
hahaha.
but you still ate.
i think.
heheh.
even though we weren't
really really really close friends
but still really good friends(:
i miss you so much!!
ahhhh.
and i still have your kinkuniya gift voucher
hahah,
you were so funny!
giving out all the spore stuff you had left over
like your popular bookshop card,
and i rmbr sending you off
i thought i wasn't going to cry la
cause i was really sleepy.
woke up at five plus am for you!
but then its like we said goodbye so many times
but it wasnt really sad yet
but when you finally left,
and were crying quite alot
then it hit me too):
but i was trying to hold it in
so i looked behind
were the rest of them were
and saw ching han
and shewas like really crying alot
and badly
which totally made me cry too.-.-
but if it were me who was leaving,
i would want all of you to cry too.
hahah.
then we tried to see your plane take off
but yea, couldnt see it
and at the start of this year,
none of the teachers knew you left
and your name was still one the namelist
so the teachers would be like
vishaki! vishaki! whos vishaki?
then all the 2c1ers were like
she migrated to australia-.-
yepp.
haaaaaaaaa.
yeah, anyways
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
HAVE FUN!
LOTS OF LOVE FROM,
YOUR FELLOW LOST LOVER,
SMARTY PBL MATEY(ARRR)
FRIED RICE LIKER?
AND NICE, AWESOME FRIEND:D
PHOEBEEEHHH
FEEE BEEE TEEE HEEE
FEEE TEEE BEEE HEEE
TEEE FEEE HEEE BEEE
(do you still rmbr that? haha)
WHATEVER NAME YOU WANT:)

9:54 PM

♥Sunday, February 3, 2008.

2.17:
OH.
MY.
GOD.
PHWOAAR.
THAT WAS BY FAR, THE HOTTEST THING EVERR.
IT WAS JUST PURE SEX APPEAL.
I WISH I COULD HAVE SEEN IT LIVE!
OMFG.
I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO STOP WATCHING IT OVER AND OVER.
FUCKING HELL, POYNTER.
I'M GOING CRAZY.

9:18 PM

♥Saturday, February 2, 2008.

whoa. ok,
this week passed really fast
really cool(:
but next week's going to pass even faster!
cause there's like two days off
and no tests!
i think.
should be.
but ahhh.
friday(yesterday) sort of sucked):
we had to take stupid pictures for cs
then, it rained
really heavily.
and me xinyi and paveta
only had one tiny umbrella
but paveta got t be in the middle-.-
and was really dry at first.
and left me and xinyi pulling the umbrella
towards each other.
really funny.
but then paveta realised
that she forgot to take her paper bag
with her books are something
so she ran all the way back
in the rain
without an umbrella
so we had her out of the way
more space for me and xinyi(:
and we realised that she took up
alot of space.
and we were mean.
haha. we went to the bus stop
didnt wait for her
we'd get totally drenched.(:
hahaha,
oh then xiyuan offered us a ride
to the mrt station
so we said yes(:
but then the bus came.
we took the bus
cause we didnt really want
to wet her aunts car.
so yes,
xi yuan's friends squeezed for us for nothing
sorry friends of xiyuan! (:
hahah.
then went home and slept in my wet clothes
and my stupid father opened all the windows
it was super cold!
pffft.
and i finished my math homework
at the start of the weekend
again!
whooo, i'm such a geek.
ohoh.
i watched bridget jones diary yesterday.
yes, really old.
but yea, it was nice.
watched it on mio tv
my father bought some movie channel thing
mio's quite lousy really
except that its got hd!
really clear.
now we have scv and mio tv
whoo.
but our dvd player/recorder spoilt!
now i cant watch my mcfly
on t4 on the beach
on tv):
until my father buys a new one.
oh yes right.
and watched bridget jones 2 today.
ohohoh!
i might be getting my ds!
yay(:
cause my father talked to my brother
about the switchfoot concert
like how my brother didnt tell him about it
then he would have went with him O.o
cause my brother didnt want to go
he couldnt find anyone to go with him
right,
thats the dumbest thing ever.
its his favourite band(even though it isnt that good)
and they finally come to singapore
and its like a once in a lifetime opportunity
but he doesnt go!
oh my god-.-
if mcfly ever came(oh so unlikely):)
i would go
NO MATTER WHAT!
ahhh,
its so unfair
stupid switchfoot comes to singapore
but mcfly doesnt):
i sooo want mcfly to come):
please?

8:40 PM